Puay Lin

2011-03-26T11:16:00.000+08:00

wisdom unfortunately, doesn't always come with age.

2011-03-13T17:13:00.000+08:00

I hate my cca

2011-02-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.
u must be thinking "wah finally a new post"
too busy this year.
so tired.
everyday got hwk and cca & cca, & cca.
never ending.
i nearly fell asleep in class tdy.
e maths i slept a little only.
tmr CCA again -.-
i dunno if i got srp tmr.
my form teacher everything conduct grade. sianz.
i feel like closing this blog.
i no time update, ppl also no time visit...
but i don't want to close like this leh.
this blog has been used for years.
got feelings.
really from pri sch till now.
wow.
failing and failing.
sometimes i think of other stuff during lessons.
like what am i going to become when i leave sch...
how am i going to study for o level etc.
i can't help but think abt these stuff...
cca made me damn sleepy when i reach home.
i have no energy left to do hwk, i always fall asleep while doing hwk these few days.
keep yawning in lessons.
want sleep but can't.
we students are only teenagers!
we need enough sleep to grow.
we need time to rest
we need privacy
by right, at our age, we should also be enjoying life like those elderly.
not chiong-ing hwk everyday,
stay up late to revise for tests,
see teachers' black face everyday,
torture ourselves by having no life.
pathetic?

everyday study and study...
the pressure is making me breathless.
never ending things to complete.
why are we students becoming like that?
P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C

i want to rest!
u adults think that going to sch is easy?
then u are really dumb.
u go work, nagged and scolded by boss.
go sch, scolded by teachers with their nagging, of coz.
work from morning till evening?
after sch got cca, also no difference!
competitive in work?
we students are also very competitive okay!
had conflict or arguements with colleagues?
we students also have social circle.
and that lead to having friendship problems, arguements, silence war, gossiping...
ADULTS, what u faced during work is like what we are facing in school.
u are above 20 years old.
but we are in our teens.
get the idea of how stressful we are?!u said there're hypocrites and boot lickers all those shitty
ppl in ur office/workplace...
but schools are also filled with these ppl.
work work work, study study & study.
omy.
at least u get ur pay at the end of the month,
we students only get the results and we are depressed when we see the result.
this caused unhappiness and might lead to depression ya know.
spare a thought for us.
make things easier for us.
make it a win win situation better...

2011-01-10T21:09:00.002+08:00

last week de physics lesson wah nearly whole class want sleep sia!
LOL.
My eyes were going to close! halfway to close lor.
then mdm Ilyssa* look at me i quickly open my eyes.
then after a while cannot tahan.
really NEARLY going to close liao hor,
jian xing "oi" me and i woke up.
WAH THE MILKY WAY.
closer and closer, pls lor, the more closer i see the closer I'm going to sleep la.
hope this week's physics not like that.
Bio draw cells. -.-
chem cher didn't come tdy.
at first the cher who is call mr teoh or sth de
I thought he's cute
but after that he rolled his eyes on me.
uh, dun like him liao.
BUT, I can't forget his looks. lols
sch is so sianz.
bleah.

you don't care so I don't care.

2010-12-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

watched yu le bai fen bai ytd.
watched nearly the whole day.
shiok.
I love SHOW LUO! :D
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
it's your problem if u don't like him. :P
tuitioned from 12pm to 1.30pm.
A maths is difficult.
chalet tmr.
still got dance ):
holidays going to be over soon.
oh god. what have i been doing over the holidays??
hmm, i also dunno lol.
hwk haven't do.
so sian.
homework ruins my mood!
christmas quite boring.
staying at home and rot.
but, this year's christmas quite a lot of ppl sms me! :D
even pri sch frenz.
last year, the new year hor... not many ppl smsed me.
i love reading letters.
I can smile all the way while I'm reading the letters.
aiyo later still have to go buy take away food.
SIANZ
my bro lazy, confirm don't want go buy.
so, in the end i go buy ):
now stomach weird weird de, aiya i wan go toilet liao.
bye bye

2010-12-07T22:13:00.001+08:00

全部都是一场梦
恶梦！
为什么人类要这么自私？
为什么这个世界如此现实，太可怕了。

2010-12-05T16:29:00.002+08:00

went for E math tuition ytd, from 3pm to 4.30pm.
haiz i hate tuition on saturdays, somemore it's from 3 to 4.30...
middle of the afternoon.
i can't go out on saturdays anymore. ):
had my A math tuition from 12pm to 1.30pm tdy.
i was 5min late.
tmr got cca D:
wah hate it sia.
i have a feeling that next year gonna be a tough year for me.
higher mother tongue, syf, triple sci.
i browsed through the bio textbook this morning,
and i totally wanna faint okay.
i don't understand the genetic and DNA thing,
i dun even know what the drawings are.
i don't understand.
omg. omg. omg.
i hope next year de teachers are nice.
i don't want crazy teachers anymore.
now december alrdy, so fast.
then a few more weeks, it'll be closer to sch reopens.
uh, i just hate it la.
tmr got volleyball, woo~
long time didn't play le.
sometimes, i just can't stop thinking abt random stuff that ruins my mood.
i die die don't want sch reopens leh.
but i had no choice ):
saw the class chalet note tagged by jian xing.
wecko, frisbee, dance minic dance...
wah copied from dance camp lor.
i'm not in a gd mood now, coz it's afternoon.
i don't like afternoons.
i like evenings. (:
this is the 334th post.
wow, this blog so long liao.
although so few ppl visit my blog, but nevermind.
i like it this way. (:
ok, nth to post le, go watch entertainment 100 now.
i need some laughter right now.
bye~

2010-12-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

haiz, u think i like to whine all day right?
yes, i bet so.
so sorry that i'm complaining abt my family again...
i really feel like dying living with my family.
i hate my dad, my mum and my brother.
i really dunno what to say anymore.
i dunno what to say about them anymore.
i hate them, because i always thought that they're wonderful,
yet they keep smashing the wonderful family image in my mind.
why why why????!
my mum said i'm very selfish, my mum said i'm very dirty,
my mum said i'm very detestable, my mum said i'm very useless,
my mum said i'm stupid, my mum said i only know how to spend money,
my mum said i everyday didn't do anything, only know how to use the comp,
my mum said i'm very rude, my mum said i'm very lazy,
my mum said i'm very annoying, my mum said i'm very stingy,
my mum said i'm very fat, my mum said i'm becoming worse,
my dad said i like to look for trouble, my dad said i very jian,
my dad said i very ai mu xu rong, my dad said i'm careless.
my brother said i'm very ah lian, my brother said i have no manners,
my brother said i'm very stupid, my brother scolds me the f word,
my brother hates my friends, my brother said i'm very useless,
my brother said i'm a loser.
my whole family despise me.
yes, they look down on me.
and all these are driving me crazy.
someday u might find me in the mental hospital.
i dreaded another new day.
i always dreaded a TOMORROW.
why must my family hurt me like this?
why must they say hurtful things everytime?!
everything is going against me!
and how i hate it...
fyi, blogger went against me just now.
the part until "why must my family hurt me lile this",
was saved as draft,
the other long long half part, was not saved.
because sth's wrong with the internet connection i think.
so in the end, the post which i spent a long time typing to vent my anger were GONE.
I HATE EVERYTHING.
i hate tmr, because tmr got dance,
and what i hate most there is the people.
they sucks.
maybe i should just stop trying.
i'm a loser.

2010-12-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

my mum disgusts me...
all she do is side with my brother.
YUCKS!!!!
she wants me to share the packet of cheese which i bought for myself
with my bro.
just because my bro wanna eat.
but when has my brother share his things with me?!!!!!
so unfair!!!!
i hate all of them
she dunno how hard i save money, yet all she do is nag at me.
without knowing anything, she said i used her money to buy
birthday presents for frenz!
wth.
can she stfu?!
stop accusing me la!
i feel like a criminal in this hse.
how i hate them!
they always give me a lot of pressure...
i'm going crazy!
zi ji ren zi ji ren...
she knows how to say it, but she dun even noe abt the meaning of the word.
i can't feel her treating me like zi ji ren lor.
i hate her favourism.
i rmb one rainy day during my pri sch,
i offered to take the umbrella for her.
and she said i was trying to play with the umbrella.
i felt so hurt that time...
she's hurting me everyday, my tears just keep rolling down my cheeks.
all she care abt is my bro, her money.
and i'm not her concern at all.
i hate her concern as well.
coz i dunno when she will treat me coldly again.
i felt so stupid, so worthless, so left out in this family.
my mum even go check my drawers for things that i buy!
how rude.
unreasonable woman.
DISGUSTING.
don't even noe how to respect ppl's privacy.
i just hate my whole family.
it's like there's nth of me that pleases them.
i can always feel it.
i have feelings too!
they treat me like i'm invisible,
they treat me like i'm such a spoilt brat,
they dun even want to talk to me!
i hate them.
i can't resist the urge to burst into tears.
the tears sometimes are too heavy that they roll down my cheeks uncontrollably.
i'm really tired of the crap my family give me EVERY SINGLE DAY.
although i have my own room,
but i dun even have a little privacy.
for ppl who are sharing a room with siblings,
they don't understand the loneliness of sleeping alone.
it's like u want someone to sleep beside u, but there's no one there.
the room's dark, u can only interact with the dark surrounding...
everyday's the same. meaningless for me.
how i hate it.
i hate myself too.
i start to detest everything.
i don't like it like this too.
i don't know how to communicate with them anymore.
they SUCKS.
give me a break pls.

2010-11-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just like to listen to slow korean songs...
not because i understand any of the lyrics,
but because the singer sang it with... agony?
they always give me a really sad feeling.
their voices are also very important.
i can tell u some of them are awful, like sore throat or sth la.
i love 娱乐百分百... it's damn funny!
it can definitely cheer me up.
went to jian xing's hse to watch personal taste tdy.
he bought me a pair of volleyball earrings! :D
thanks li jian xing!
i love earrings and bags.
these are the 2 things that i love abt female.
since most girls can't bring themselves to change their hearts so easily,
i think changing bags can substitute that haha ;)
but for earrings, i just think they're cute (:
at least they don't have so many blingblings? lol
i love to change my earrings everyday.
and, i love comics.
preferably english ones.
i can read finish comics in one or at most, 2 days.
one thing abt comics is that once u start reading, u can't bring yourself to stop lol.
still coughing. ):
haven't do a single hwk.
it's okay, right? haha.
i think i have an ulcer in my mouth. ):
i made a yogurt mask this morning lol.
the effect was quite gd. :]

looking at someone from a distance does not feel good.
looking at their backs, hoping that they will turn their heads back,
but u know it's impossible.
why do u have to go?
i hope this is just a dream.

okay, my mum is picking a fight right now.
i finally found some peace when she's in the toilet bathing,
but now, she's back to her own self again.
i wish i can stitch up her lips.
she made me feel so useless.
she's making me hate her.
the one that she cares is my brother.
she's scolding me everyday.
she's driving me into the corners.
i'm going crazy.
she's also going crazy.
i'm so worthless.
i think i might as well treat her like a stranger sometimes.
so we will not fight.
i just want to know why.
why. why. why.
i dunno!

2010-11-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

fml
fml
fml
fml
yes, i'm going to complain abt my family problems.
typical fourteen yr old girl complaining abt my damn family.
FML!
i had enough!
i'm in a really bad mood now, let me let out my anger, can?!
my whole family go against me.
EVERYTHING.
i HATE them.
family... wat's tat word? i dunno.
they find me useless, they think of me like a piece of shit.
i'm always nothing in their eyes.
i'm the useless one.
yes, i'm really the useless one.
it hurts to say i'm useless to myself.
yes, i'm very useless.
i keep thinking everyday...
why can't they treat me like how they treat my bro?
am i that detestable to them?
it's not that i want to be scolded by them everything.
maybe, just maybe, i just want their attention...
i just want someone to love me.
it's a torture to think to myself that i'm unwanted.
i'm a bad girl, a bad student to them.
that's what my family do to me...
hurt me more than anyone.
i don't know how much longer i can take all these crap.
i'm left with nothing.
I know i hate to stay at home coz there's nobody to love me when i'm at home.
i applied nail polish, and i got scolded by my mum.
i bought clothes, my mum get pissed, and give me attitude.
i hate this kind of life.
i have freedom too.
who say a fourteen year old girl can't apply nail polish?
who say a fourteen year old girl can't enjoy herself outside?
there's something wrong with the brains of my family.
they sucks.
i hate to face them.
leave me alone.
i'm a sore to their eyes.
i knew it.
i realised that no matter how hard i tried,
i can't change anything.
they just can't see my good side.
they just can't see the real me.
all they see are my flaws.
it's a total torture for me to stay at home.
what's the point?

2010-11-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

i very tired now~
i'm a little unwell these few days.
starting to have cough
and ytd when i drink water, the taste is really very blend.
went to sembawang yacht club just now,
for performance.
there's a lot of chi goh pek there. =.=
i really would appreciate if they show us some respect.
we're not from nightclub la.
monday going to watch mega mind.
this whole week i haven't had a proper day to rest.
urgh. damn world.
i feel like i'm lost in my la la land liao.
with no goal, no direction. D:
haiz...
it wasn't always easy to see the line between the real and the imagined. ):

despite my 20+ min in the bathroom, my hair still has the hair spray smell. -.-
i haven't do a single hwk, sian la.
i tied a high pony tail tdy and
my hair is pulled.
O.M.G, so painnnn!

舍不得，也去可奈何
变了心的人，越想越伤人
我想哭，但哭不出来

2010-11-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

hiie.
sometimes i feel like closing my blog leh.
so sian.
most of the links are no longer valid le.
deleted many few days ago.
my blog sometimes is really so dead la.
sometimes also nth much to post leh.
kns.
tmr finally no cca. (:
i haven't read finish my library books.
also no mood to read those books...
i dunno why, my left hand de index finger feels so pain tdy.
near the nail there... D:
typing also very pain ):
i have been in a bad mood since ytd.
afternoon quarrelled with my brother.
i think maybe the whole blk can hear us.
we shout like crazy ppl.
he's making my blood boil recently.
i'm so pissed off with him!
next Monday going to watch mega mind.
aiyo, i going to become no money sooner or later le.
long time didn't play audi alrdy,
very sian leh
i want to watch finish all episodes of personal taste suddenly lol
tooooo bored.
but i don't want do hwk laaaaa
i had a weird dream last night,
i dreamt that i can't get into triple sci next year.
i think coz of higher mother tongue...
but i forgot most of it le.
so weird, my nose feels sick right now. ):
i dreaded sch reopen.
next year i'm going to miss 2e3 TERRIBLY.
the thought of being separated from 2e3 kinda kills me a little inside.
ok nth to write liao, bye.

2010-11-09T19:19:00.003+08:00

hello.
busy with my cca this few days.
i had so much fun ytd. :D
went to pasir ris for bbq.
it's a class outing.
i helped to pump water inside the balloons for water balloons! :D
actually i didn't pump,
but i helped to tie.
it's also very tiring okay!
my fingers were all wrinkled! -.-
yun xuan pumped then i tied. lol
sometimes we were just playing with water. :D
it's been a long time since i play water play until so fun sia.
thinking of childhood memories again...
rent a bike, 2hr for $5.
borrowed a couple bike from frenz.
then it's scary at first...
but after we got the hang of it,
it's fun!~ :DD
i so gonna miss all these fun next year. ):
had 2 chicken wings,3 hotdogs and 3 satays ytd.
jian xing's pineapple fried rice was delicious. (:
i think the part which is the most fun and exciting part is
we went to the toilet at night and splashed water at one another there! :D
i soooooo love tat part HAHA!
the funniest part is jing han sliding here and there coz the floor slippery. rofl, tat's very very funny if u are present there.
the boys used 1.5 litres water bottles, while the girls used cups.
i'm all wet last night.
it's cold~
BUT IT'S DEFINITELY VERY FUN! :D
i didn't bring any shorts to change, so my shorts were wet.
the fun is beyond description.
i won't forget everybody's laughter.
this year de bbq there wasn't a single photo taken, i tink.
BUT THE FUN IS MEMORIES TO ALL. :D
I love to play with water! ;D

2010-11-05T23:18:00.002+08:00

I really don't like my parents, esp my mum.
I don't know how to communicate with her anymore.
there's nothing much for me to talk abt her actually.
coz she always make me speechless...
Each time she critisize me,
i can feel a sword piercing through my heart.
I had enough of her.
she hates whatever i bought home.
yeah, maybe she just hates me.
these few days cca, she don't even know how tired i am.
yet all she do is attack me with that rotten mouth of hers.
am i that useless and dumb and stupid and messy to her?!!!!
why can't she show me some concern.
I.FEEL.LIKE.CRYING.
went bugis tdy then i bought 2 tees.
one white, one black.
when she washes the tees,
she keep scolding me.
say they are very thin.
she also said a lot of BULLSHIT.
CRAP...
she don't even understand me.
all she do is crapping and crapping.
i wanna go out cannt meh?!
why muz she care so much!
i noe nobody else will truely understand my annoyance towards my mum.
she had gone over the line.
i can't stand her!
talking to her is making me so stress.
it will be worse when talking to my dad.
talking to my bro, i feel like vomitting blood.
i hate my family.
they changed.
they are not what i always thought of them anymore.
they had destroyed my hope for them
I don't even trust them anymore.
they are making me breathless.
is that wat a family suppose to be?
i don't think so.
everything is killing me.
making me feel like being pressed down, i'm suffocating,
but nobody cares.
i love to be loved by people, of coz.
but i feel like a rubbish now.
everything i do isn't right.
everything i do is trying to prove me wrong.
no matter how much effort i put in,
i always lose.
i'm on the verge of giving up.
nobody is even appreciating my effort.
i'm so worthless.

the worst part of my life in secondary sch is my CCA.
i chose the wrong cca and regrets filled me COMPLETELY.
damn cca.
12 pts.
for 2 years.
that's wat i got.
after i tried my best.
those 12 pts really make me wanna give up.
nobody is seeing my effort,
nobody is encouraging me.
i went for every training.
and that's wat i got.
i won't say i'm the best,
but in those ppl's eyes,
i'm like shit.
yes, shit.
i'm too scared to continue...
i'm tired.
that's the worst choice i had ever made in my 14 years of living.
for choosing that damn cca.
it's killing me.
it is the place where my confidence sink to the bottom.
my heart sank long ago.
and now my confidence is like 1-2.
i tink it will really become 0 in no time.
i'm hopeless there.
12 pts.
I.HATE.IT.
the ppl there is OMG.
i don't seem to be myself whenever i go for cca.
i smile my fakest smile there.
i laugh fakest laugh there.
BUT, i shed the painful tears there.
yeah, tat's how i feel THERE.
and it's totally L.A.M.E.
i have no passion for it at all.
it drained all the remaining passion.
yes, pathetic me in that damn cca.

2010-10-31T09:55:00.002+08:00

went to night safari ytd...
woohoo, quite fun (:
when we are at the entrance of the zoo,
we saw ghosts pretend by people.
some are not so scary
but the i'm afraid of only 2 ghosts...
1. the indian guy with a centipede or sth on his hand that moves.
2. the girl with dry hair covering her face.
when i first saw her, i really had a shock.
then she began to follow me! omg.
the indian guy also!
when he saw that i'm afraid of the centipede,
he began to follow me!
i'm not afraid of him, but the centipede on his hand! -.-
i hate insects more than ghosts.
we queued up for the Gui Mansion.
and amirul was leading us...
thanks amirul.
and sorry for the pulling of your shirt in the Gui Mansion.
i can't see clearly in the dark, and i'm afraid that we will lose u.
but i'm surprised that i didn't scream much.
i was holding lzl's hand tightly.
and luckily, we made it to the exit. (:
at the exit, there's a person taking photo at a salon.
inside the salon, there was a man in weird costume.
when i saw his eyes moving, i know he was a person.
but i didn't expect him to shout suddenly.
when i stepped inside, he shouted suddenly.
and i screamed.
but i did take a photo in the salon in the end.
we went for the 45 min train ride at night safari.
the seat beside lzl was empty
and got one person who thinks he's "macho",
got onto the seat.
he's scary.
i can only see his stomach and chest.
when i looked up,
i screamed a little.
jian mei mei was funny,
he created jokes out of them. :D
after the train ride,
we had to walk now.
fang shun was leading the way now.
i was scared by one or two ghost this time.
the one who made me screamed louder is a guy hiding beside me and
he suddenly shouted.
others were okay.
then we get to watch the show performed by some of the animals of night safari.
it was okay.
some parts quite lame, some impressing.
then boarded 138 to ang mo kio int.
i fell asleep while standing on the bus.
we went to board mrt from ang mo kio int.
we boarded to yishun mrt and went to mac to eat sth.
after that i had to rush for the mrt train.
last train was at 12+am.
i called my dad to fetch me when i reached sun plaza.
i reached home at 12.15 or 12.20am.
went to bath then sleep.

it was really heartbreaking...
to see u ignore me.
when we touch, my heart beat faster than ever.
when our eyes meet,
my world seems to stop.
yes, u are that amazing.
but u aren't mine,
i can't do anything.
whenever u walked away from me,
my heart sinks to the bottom.
i can't do anything.
all i can feel is the sadness surrounding me.
i need u.
my eyes will always search for u in every place that i go.
what if one day i become blind?
my ears will still look out for your voice and laughters.
u are unique.
u are always on my mind.
i can't stop thinking about u.
i can't stop thinking about the moments we spent together.
i just can't. D:
i want only myself in your eyes.
i know i'm selfish,
but i wish u are mine.
IMPOSSIBLE is the word.
if you are happy,
i love to see your smiles and hear your laughters.
when u are sad,
i would love to hear your pain and go through them with u.
but since u are making my heart all tangled up,
and i'm not sure if i'm even on your mind,
i decided not to do anything.
i'm afraid of being hurt badly.
it's like a stabbing pain.
i want to get close but i'm afraid u don't like it.
i want to talk to u more,
but i don't know exactly what to talk about,
coz when i'm around u,
my mouth seems to stitch up.
tell me what to do...

2010-10-27T21:05:00.003+08:00

yes, everyone is waiting for a better day.
Same goes to me.

hmm... tmr shall be the last day.
if it's last year, i will be in joy.
but... i don't feel in the least happy?
coz i don't want to separate from them now.
it's almost 2 years.
time flies...
remeber the times of mrs chew?
i had always been so afraid to go for her home econ lessons
after the 2nd day of sch during her home econ lesson.
i can tell u that, that day is the worst day of my school life.
being terribly scolded by her, she caused me to get lost in sch for the first time,
she made me cook weird stuff, she took MORE THAN HALF of my beehoon,
saying that i can't finish them, she smacked my butt coz i dunno how to adjust the knob of the oven, she scolded the class with the silly names she came up, like FOUR SIDED IDIOTS.
i find them funny now...
mr yong's literature lessons were sleeping time!
move it move it, ah sau likes to move it move it!
wow.
mrs tay! HAHAHAHAHA.
teach us how to go malaysia by train and buy cheap tickets...
nobody is listening to her during her geograohy lessons.
ms ong, co-form teacher.
always want us to look proper, told the girls to clip up the fringe, tuck in...
ms tow, HAHA!
shout and shout all day.
i wonder how her throat take it.
poor throat of ms tow...
i think the students are the most rebellious during her lessons. HAHA
with amsyar, nauwfhal and zaki... THE JOKERS. (:
i'm beginning to like them.
and now we're going to be separated.
i will definitely miss them.
for nauwfhal, he's my pri sch classmate...
been in the same class as him for 3 years.
although he always pick on me, tease me, annoys me,
but now i suddenly thought of all the funny things he did.
he wasn't so bad after all.
i wonder what ole 3 will be next year -.-
i don't look forward to ole at all.
lame shit.
fyi, i hate camps.

well, i think u ruined everything for the last few days.
changed my mind, changed my heart.
okay, "eww" is all i can say.
yes, i'm quite worthless. that's me in your heart, isn't it?

I'm thinking hard.
will i pass my obstacles next year?
i have a bad feeling that i won't.
i can't trust myself! can u stop k-ing me?! u are not the
only one being pissed off or upset or unhappy or whatever lor! and be more responsible for your own actions. u throughly disgusted me!! -.-

2010-10-26T19:02:00.003+08:00

tdy is the day i lost all the remaining respect i have for u.
too bad, u don't deserve my respect.
because i feel that u are freaking scary.
scary physically and mentally.
to me, u are a USELESS VASE.
with no looks and heartless.
i must say, wat a bullshit u are.
i have never seen anyone like u before.
tdy i finally get to see it.
and i'm totally disgusted.
i can't believe this is happening in reality.
and tdy i realised u are THROUGHLY HEARTLESS.
i can't believe u did that.
i'm glad that i never trusted u.
if i trusted u, i will end up like her.
being HURT.
what a useless vase.
we don't need u, seriously.
think again.
do u feel happy seeing others so sad?
do u feel a surge of success when u get that silly goal of yours?!
u are hurting others with your silly and utterly stupid thinking.
i had always thought that it will only happen in dramas on tv
but i can't believe it's happening in my life.
when i heard that, i NEVER thought u would do that
i was so wrong.
u destroyed the unpleasant image in my mind, now that image become worse...
it's kinda like a witch, or some evil girl with no brain.
THINK AGAIN, freak.
and we are 2 stupid retards who always forgive and not forget.
though we didn't forget but we still forgive u in the end right?
i'm not trying to say we are noble or anything.
surely, we are not AS NOBLE AS U ARE WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE...
seriously, THINK TWICE BEFORE U ACT.
we are not as immature as u are.
so what will it change if u post about everything all over the net?
we have eyes, we can see it.
it's not that we did not see any of those.
we are just letting it go, and trying to ignore it.
& did we do anything back to u?
think.
pls appreciate.
oh, i forgot u are HEARTLESS.
heartless people don't have sympathy, don't even know how to appreciate.
i suppose these 2 words are never in their dictionaries.
do u have many friends?
i didn't even hear u talk about pri sch incidents as happy as we are.
u are the one who is the most pitiful.
with all the crap and bullshit u give us everyday,
i think our lives will be shorten by a few years.
i think there's something wrong with your brain?
it does not function civilisely.
I DESPISE U.
it's been quite a long time since i blog abt this kinda stuff.
that's because, U ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE TOLERATING.
go on, continue.
say how noble, how pitiful u are to the whole world...
even if others are deceived by u, i will never believe u again.
coz u are disgusting. u are never a true friend. this is how u treat people.
have u ever realised that we had treated u like a true friend before?
yet u, yourself ruined everything.
that explains why for your friendship problems.
serve u right.
and did u realise that i only talk crap to u?
because, u don't deserve my trust, so sorry.
hey, why am i saying sorry?
u destroyed the little trust i had in u.
so u should say sorry to yourself.
the society out there is even scarier than the 2 of us.
u have not got your worst treatment yet.
damn you.

2010-10-24T16:17:00.002+08:00

You keep trying to get inside my head,
while i keep trying to lose the words said by you
can't you see i'm hanging by a thread,
to my life what i know, yeah i'm losing control and
oh no, my walls are gonna break
so close, it's more than i can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
when love just isn't safe
I'm stong enough, i've always tell myself
I never want to need someone else
But i've already fallen from that hill
so I'm dropping that guard here's your chance at my heart and
oh no, my walls are gonna break
so close, it's more than i can take
i'm so tired of turning and running away
when love just isn't
Everything you want, it's everything you need,
It's not always happy endings
but it's happy in between
It'd taken so long, so long to finally see
the other isn't worth the risk.
Oh no, my walls are gonna breeeaakk
oh no, my walls are gonna break
so close, it's more than i can take
so tired of turning and running away
when love just isn't safe
oh no, my walls are gonna break
so close, it's more than i can take
so tired of turning and running away
when love just isn't safe

Little girl terrified.
she'd leave her room if only bruises would heal
A home is no place to hide
her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels
Everyday's the same
She fights to find her way
she hurts,
she breaks,
she hides,
and tries to pray
she wonders why
Does anyone ever hear her when she cries?
today she's turning sixteen
everyone's singing but she can't seem to smile
they never get past arms length
How could they act like everything is alright?
Pulling down her long sleeves
to cover all the memories that scars leave
She says "maybe making me bleed will be the answer that could wash the slate clean"
everyday's the same,
she fights to find her way,
she hurts,
she breaks,
she hides,
and tries to pray,
she wonders why
does anyone ever hear her when she cries?
This is the dark before the dawn
the storm before the peace
don't be afraid
cause seasons change
and God is watching over you
He hears you.
Everyday's the same,
she fights to find her way,
she hurts,
she breaks,
she hides,
and tries to pray,
she'll be just fine
cause i know, he hears her when she cries
everyday's the same
she fights to find her way
she hurts,
she breaks,
she hides,
and tries to pray
she'll be just fine
cause i know, he hears her when she cries
she'll be just fine
cause i know, he hears her when she cries.

Somehow love is still difficult
I'm always clumsy
In truth i've been closer friends with sorrow
Love seems far
Because we are so different from each other
Because we are only similar in that we are fools
at times we are out of step
and at times we must collide,
but it must be love, it must be love
when i look at you my heart is touched.
my rusted heart, my frozen heart
you woke even alive
please love me, please hug me
my hidden scars, painful tears, sad loneliness
so these will never come again.
I'm afraid to give my heart,
in case of hurting.
the heart that i've deserted for a while this way
the heart that i had closed
when did you seep in
when did you fill up
my heart, with your aromas, with your memories
it must be love, it must be love
when i look at you my heart is touched
my rusted heart my frozen heart
you woke even them alive
please love me, please hug me
my hidden scars, painful tears, sad loneliness
so these will never come again
the person who had been obscured
at the end of my longtime tears
the one who i had been waiting for long days
it must be you, it must be you
next to you, i smile even if i had been hurting
deep scars, tears that had been like a habit
you, who healed these
i'll show you, i'll give you all
of all my love that i have treasured
the word loneliness, the word parting
so that these will not exist for us
so that only love will remain.

2010-10-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

what had been done cannot be undone.
I hate my life, seriously.
omg, can i listen to some happy and lively songs?!
i'm listening to some pathetic songs now.
those sad sad ones.
yeah they sucks right now.
and besides the music, there's my mum's ANNOYING voice.
I hate her damn lot.
all she cares abt is money, her work, her tireness...
I remember last time during pri sch she will still give me encouragement
when exams are near.
NOW? she dun even ask.
I feel so pathetic sometimes.
My eyes are filled with tears that can't flow down while i'm typing.
last sat i fell down when chasing the bus
and during that time my dad not in singapore,
he had gone to seychelles for work
then when he came back on tue,
i purposely apply medicine on my wounds in front of him.
the only reason is to make him notice it.
I know the reason deep in my heart but i dun dare to admit.
Do i have to resort to this??
I seem to be so lonely at home.
this house is dead quiet in the afternoon...
parents working like mad, brother using comp...
i'm left alone.
the empty and lonely feeling
and i hate it.
u are not me, u dun understand coz u can't feel it.
the attitude from my parents towards my bro and me are totally different
and only i can feel it.
they always think that he's gd, i'm not.
i feel so...HURT.
since i was young, they always joke around with my bro but not me.
I'm never doing them proud.
I'm never up to their satisfaction.
i kinda dislike my bro coz he snatched away my parents' love for me since he was borned.
there was no need for me to share anything before he was borned.
i dun have to share my toys, share my bikes, share my dohs...
Life was so happy then, with my ah ma, ah gong taking care of me
even when i'm disobedient, naughty, playful, they will always give in to me.
I really thought that i was the luckiest person on earth.
until my bro was born...
my life changed and my mother side de family all dote on him A LOT.
each time they call my hse phone, and a child pick up,
they will say "quan quan?"
the first child that comes to their minds is always my brother.
My heart really has a deep deep scar.
each time they say quan quan,
i felt the pain in my heart.
i'm damn angry with them.
why can't they be fair?!
i'm their grand daughter too, i deserve the same treatment.
it's not like i've done sth wrong to deserve this kind of attitude difference.
the whole family seems to hate me.
they must have thought that i'm more imperfect
and brought them a lot of trouble when i was an infant.
since i was borned, i had high fever soon after.
and it rised to 42 degree celcius.
my parents had to wake up at night to check my temp, feed medicine etc.
but my temp just won't drop.
they sent me to the hospital and i had fits.
i can still rmb myself trembling.
luckily i was saved. if not i will not be typing now, instead, i will be in red cross.
after that fever, my parents became very strict with whatever i eat,
they dun allow me to eat junk food, coz they're considered heaty.
that's why i seldom eat junk food.
but i can't gain their trust no matter how hard i tried.
they dun trust me anymore.
they want to interfere in everything, mostly things that are too extra to be bothered.
my bro is always better in everything.
his height, his size, his studies, his creativity, his common sense, his tidiness, his speed...
i feel so inferior compared to him.
i'm like worthless in this home.
home is never a place for me to be happy anymore.
it's just a place for me for vacation.
my family really dunno anything abt me once i entered secondary...
they dun even bother to ask, yet my mum keep annoying me with her silly and crappy qns.
abt B-G relationships.
i'm tired of her dumb qns
from sec one onwards, we have not been communicating well.
Whatever she says, i don't get it.
Whatever i say, she don't understand and i doubt she will one day.
I suddenly realise how hard i'm trying to communicate well with her,
yet nth changes.
our relationship is getting worse year after year.
I really don't know how to solve this generation gap problem.
I can't seem to smile when i go out with my family.
someday i just want to let out a loud, really loud cry!
I can only cry silently in my bedroom as i feared that my family will hear my cries.
i don't want them to come and ask me if i'm okay or wat.
i will feel worse.
I feel like there's no one on earth to love me.
am i that detestable to them?
my heart breaks everyday.
the whole family can stay silent for hours or even half a day.
THIS IS NOT A FAMILY already.
whenever i see family gathering, bbq at the beaches or parks,
HOW I WISH MY FAMILY CAN BE LIKE THEM.
how i wish i can have fun with my cousins...
i have few cousins only.
and i'm not that close to them
I really feel very very lonely.
I start to hate everything.
i don't want too.
but can't help it.
someday i will lie inside a coffin and everything shall end.
except for being decomposed by the creatures underground. that's gross. -.-
I can't make fun of my family members, or i'll get scolded.
I can't help my mum when she's cooking coz she thinks i'm not capable enough.
I can't share the joy of my results with my family coz they still don't think i'm good enough.
I can't have just 4 of us to go overseas coz my mum thinks we owe my third aunt ren qing,
so we should ask her along. CRAP.
I can't be loved by my family.
I'm always the useless one in my family.
i feel so worthless.
i can't have many cousins,
i can't say vulgarities at home.
i can't play with food at home.
i can't waste food at home.
AND my mum thinks i'm dirty and oily.
well that's me in her heart.
fine, i've long given up.
i don't want to dream of what happy family and many cousins to be with anymore.
i decided to wake up from my dream.
or should i say it's a nightmare instead of a dream?
i fell so fast that i'm at a loss now.

PLEASE LA, SHUT THE FUCK UP, CAN?!
stop all the nonsense.
I'm going crazy soon.
I don't want to continue.

2010-10-20T21:29:00.003+08:00

so tired tdy, played volleyball until 6+ pm.
tmr still have the AMO honouring ceremony.
it's so silly. and waste of time. -.-
get a certificate of participation also nid to go up and take meh.
can't the teacher give out to us
it's more direct.
knee damn pain, hand damn pain.
full of injuries.
pathetic me.
played truth or dare in class...
i got a dare and it sucks la.
i have to walk around tat chi goh pek sia!
damn disgusting okay!
but at least tat dare wasn't like heidi's.
LOL, hers almost the whole class saw it.
or should i say the whole class? lols. ^^
played police & murderer during ms tow's 2 periods of sci.
monnut and nauwfhal winked at me, coz both of them are the murderers
but too bad they never realise that i was actually the POLICE.
HAHAHAHAHA. too bad =P
wah ytd my mum face black black la.-.-
when she heard my history marks is 66, she changed her expression.
then when she heard of my language marks,
which are 50+, she stared at me and started scolding me!
scold all she wants.
it won't change anything too.
I want to restart everything.
If i hadn't meet him, i won't be in such a misery now.
if i didn't go tat school, i wouldn't have meet him.
is it all fate?
but happy things end very fast.
OMG i just fell asleep from blogging.
I'M VERY TIRED NOW.
i think i need sleep.

yeah, the good person is so fake...
wah cannot tahan liao, need sleep le!
i fell asleep on the desk for more than 4 times.
now mind is still not working.
i dun even noe wat i am typing.

ok bye bye.

2010-10-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

changed blogsong. (:

I tell myself to take things easy.

Neo Puay Lin, TAKE THINGS EASY...

no, i can't do it.

my mind is having a war every moment.

it's very tiring.

more brain cells will be killed.

My eyes will always be searching for u in a crowded place,

hoping that we will meet by fate.

how silly i am. =.=

i knew that we can never meet by concidence in a crowded place,

yet i don't want to stop believing that we'll meet.

somehow, the feeling changed.

I don't know if u are the one who changed or my heart.

the feeling is just so weird...

I can't even guess by your actions now.

poor me.

i'm such a failure.

blame me. blame me. blame me.

it's all my fault.

got back results tdy.

science 1st time got A1.

Home econ got 34 over 40.

geography add 4 marks. haha, A1 liao.

but... HCL total failure.

haven't fail but got a C5.

i wanna drop it, but mdm zhao said i can't drop it and she will talk to me on wed.

Um so scared.

i just wanna drop HCL, can't I? =.=

tmr gonna go through history, literature, english and maths! gosh.

i have a feeling that i'll fail my english.

I really have that kinda feeling.

it can make me lose my appetite immediately.

literature...i anyhow do.

history, last qns didn't finish -.-

maths, should have many careless mistakes if i'm correct.

tmr is the real DOOMSDAY. urgh

wounds haven't recover. ouch ouch.

my hiccups haven't recover since afternoon. ):

damn tired.

i just hope for a better day tmr.

PLEASE LET ME PASS MY ENGLISH!

ffo dewohs ehs

gnikaerf gnitsugsid.

yeah u & ruoy etuc ylimaf.

TIHSLLUB!

nac u slp pots ti?!

os emal rol.

sa fi i erac al

er'u os sselemahs.

this friday might be the end of our side-by-side fate.

it really breaks my heart. :'( how i wish time can be paused.

I just want u. my heart shattered into pieces whenever u leave.

My heart is tangled up in silence.

2010-10-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

I feel the weight of lies and contradictions that i live with everyday.

tmr school again. =.= omg i hate it!
had a great fall ytd,
i chased after the 859 bus then it's steep and i can't stop!
so yeah, a GREAT FALL happened. -.-
and i saw blood!! :(
the blood stopped after some time.
tdy got 2 ppl ask me why i so dark.
i went swimming ytd, tat's why.
tmr get back results. D:
i'm more worried on tue.
MY ENG. OMG
like no hope like that sia
i just want a pass in eng PLSSSSS
my HCL got c5, i'm gonna drop it next year.
anw i also not interested in HCL
haiz HCL is useless if i wanna go poly so might as well drop it.
wah so tired now...
tmr i'm scared that i will oversleep.
asked jia ying to morning call me liao.
and i myself still set 2 alarms.
should be enough right? (:
phone no money liao haiz.
papa not in singapore, nobody to drive me to school next week,
nobody to top up my phone, nobody to take my specs to the spectacles shop to repair.
AIYO.

don't make me change my mind tmr.
i know waiting for u is totally waste of time and fruitless.
but i dunno why, i just wanna wait.
I'm so silly and stubborn.
USELESS me. ):

2010-10-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

what a heartbreaking day...
tmr cca D:
i thought october would be better than september.
but i guess i'm wrong.
totally wrong.
it's a heartbreaking month.
i can do nth but think of silly crap all day.
i'm such a fool.
thanks for making me look like a fool.
I thought I'm done with u, but no, i'm not.
I wish we can go back to the start.
I might not be so miserable now.
I know i mean nth to u, but i've been trying to mean sth to u
I'm totally drained out.
I don't want to continue!
有时候无知是幸福的
我受不了这种精神上的折磨了。
放弃很难，但继续更难。
I know i dun have good figure, nice face, flawless complexion, i'm short,
i'm always tired, i dun excel in everything, i can be a noob in things,
but i can't control them.
I know i'm not perfect.
sometimes i just want to tell myself to stop all these nonsense
and continue with my own life happily without any worries
but i can't do it, u're always on my mind...
tdy when i guessed what she's doing,
i felt my heart shattered into pieces.
it's a stabbing pain that i can't explain.
I'm at a loss.
I really hope tat after i decided to give up,
the next moment or next day,
u won't suddenly sms me or appear b4 me.
do u know that i can't take it anymore?
I tried and tried, but always fail in the end
the feeling of failing is so awful.
it's beyond description.
NO MORE PLS.
u are always on my mind, how i wish i can meet an accident and forget everything abt u.
i tink it'll be better.
u are always messing up my heart and mind
can u stop it?!
i know there's no hope for us.
but I'm still don't wish to let go.
STUPID ME!
i really want to scold myself for being so silly.
I JUST WANT TO SAY SAYONARA!

2010-10-13T11:11:00.002+08:00

maybe i think too much...

maybe i'm not the one.

maybe i should have just give up all the way.

i convince myself tat u're nth but i will always disappoint myself in the end.

i feel like crap.

i feel so useless. :'(

it's not like i want anything from u

if u wan continue, pls bring me smiles.

if u're not interested, pls stop it and cut the line.

I would rather u make me hate u,

now i hate myself.

u are always giving me false hope.

i want to erase all of it.

i noe i'm quite useless and filled with lots of flaws,

but i'm still a human, i have feelings.

I feel sad too.

I chose to close my eyes to everything.

coz i dun wan to see any of it.

but too bad i can't close my ears.

i'm completely drained out.

nice work, i must say.

I'm lost again.

How i wish time can pause

so tat i can enjoy those happy moments u gave me.

but it's impossible.

I keep telling myself tat i can give up,

but i realised i'm wrong after many attempts.

it's a stabbing pain tat i can't describe.

I need to stop believing.

2010-10-09T14:01:00.002+08:00

woke up at 8.45am tdy.
use comp until now. woah.
i have a feeling that i will rot at home for next week.
maybe i can only keep myself occupied using dvd.
after exams also very troubled la.
results keep bugging me.
I tink last night i dreamt that i failed my eng!
SCARY.
i just hope for a pass in everything.
Actually I also dunno what to post.
so bored now.
no sense of directions...
going to wild wild wet on thursday.
gonna look for jobs soon!
i need money!
btw the thought of cca next fri really sucks ttm...
bleh.
haven't eat breakfast and lunch.
wah so hungry now.
shall go bath first.
tonight got personal taste.
woohoo. (:
okay bye bye!

2010-10-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

i'm so foolish sometimes.
i really wish that i can be stronger and face problems bravely.
i realised that i like to hide from problems.
i can run away but i can't hide.
sometimes i dun even noe how to hide.
I wonder if can just put ice on my heart
and the ice can numb all the pain in my heart.
someone knock me unconscious too.
i dun want to think so much.
i want to seep into the deepest sleep.
i want to have nice dreams, not nightmares.
i want to live in my own world and not care about anybody.
someday, i will get out of singapore and travel around the world.
i need the time to forget about everything.
everything around me is like a nightmare.
everyday thinking and thinking.
what's the use of thinking anyway?
it makes no difference.
i dun even have enough courage to make a difference.
i'm more afraid of the outcome than the experience.
can i just hide myself???
i'm so breathless.
i'm thinking when all these can end.
can i just sleep to death?
sorry but i will still choose to hide from reality in the end.
I want u to stop pestering me mentally.
i really don't want to take it anymore.
all these can ruin my appetite.
can make me feel so miserable.
life is the worst torture to me.
now dun come and mess up my life ever again!
i'll be treating u like... a friend who i just knew.
yes, i muz make it, even if i'm not sure if i can succeed time after time.
but at least i tried.
the feeling of failing is awful.
everything tat u did seems to be so important to me...

2010-09-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

maybe i should lose weight.
i really think i'm fat and i dun like it.
i ate many mooncakes recently. ):
then i decided to keep them in the fridge
so i won't be able to see it.
sch tmr, dun feel like sleeping!
i seriously nid to concentrate on my revision now.
i want to do well, i'm trying hard to concentrate but i can't!
nth seems to go into my head.
this fri compos.
well, quite scared.
next monday sci and history. =.=
why muz they put sci and history on the same day??
trying to tire me out? -.-
i shall cut down the time i use computer.
i'm too tense! i should relax a bit.
had fun ytd playing poker cards and SNAP
hahas, long time didn't play alrdy.
ytd was really fun playing those cards ;)
forfeit was okay.
we used poker cards to play donkey.
and i had donkey 9 times, wow.
3 times forfeit once.
so i got forfeit for 9 times, why isn't lady luck smiling at me?
yeah maybe smiling at my forfeits.
i dun feel like going to sec 3 liao.
i dun even want streaming...
i miss my canberra frenz.
but i know i can't live in the past, i must learn to move on.
i will try.
at least i try okay.
ok, shall go sleep now.
i still nid to wake up for sch tmr.
sch sucks, and i hope i won't regret saying this.
byeeeee

2010-09-18T20:07:00.002+08:00

when i woke up this morning,
my eyes were scary.
they're so dead.
i was not interested in anything, and i really have no direction.
i can't understand the Puay Lin ytd.
i decided to go run at the running track near my hse.
ran 2.2km, walked a distance then ran until 4km.
and i walked home after tat.
i cooked fried eggs using frying pan.
i'm quite useless when it comes to cooking...
my best food cooked was fried eggs.
at least it's edible. :)
then used the comp.
quite boring, coz not many ppl online.
went for a bath.
and the most unexpected thing happened.
seriously, i wanna faint after reading the msg and knowing who it's from.
although i had received tat kind of msg before,
but never from a _ _ _.
i'm really breathless alrdy.
i sat down on the floor and _ _ _.
real hard.
it's really making me go crazy
i dunno i wan smile or kill myself liao.
i dunno how to reply.
i'm so lost.
after bath, read a book.
Kasandra Kong. "This is my story..."
actually, i tink the middle of the story was a little boring.
it talks abt her goals? and wat she did for careers or dreams...
i not very interested in those chp.
i will never want a guy like the one in her book.
such a jerk.
had affair with her sister? tat's inhuman.
well, everyone makes mistakes.
at least she wake up liao.

going my ah ma hse later.
i haven't do art! and i haven't revise, which i reminded myself again and again. =.=
had a terrible day ytd.
this morning i feel better after running.

when i decided to give up on u,
u give me hope,
when i hold on to u,
u hurt me so much.
are u playing with my feelings and emotions?!
whenever i thought of tat pair of eyes,
i felt so...
beyond description.
really, it's killing me.
i really wanna kill myself for all the pain u caused.
i dunno wat to do.
tell me pls.
if u dun say anything, be it.
let tat hope in me fade away.
it's better than making me be such a dreamer.

2010-09-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

tdy was seriously a bad day for me.
the maths test tdy, i noe i did badly.
then ms ang changed some ppl's seat.
i tink she's so damn stupid.
can't she see chu hao has frenz around him?
why muz she let him sit behind me?!
it's so disgusting la.
i can't stand him, i can feel him kicking my chair.
dumbass.
why can't she just change my seat?! i hate to sit in front.
i'm always day dreaming at the white board.
i spoke to her 3 times abt seating arrangement
and she did not take it seriously.
I MISS MR YONG.

after sch went to eat lunch then go change into class tee.
afternoon got volleyball interclass.
i dun have much confident.
and i'm so tired.
i screw it up.
i hate it.
i dun even have any strength to hit the ball.
i noe i can't do well under pressure.
even if i tried, my eyes were tired.

yeah, dun trust me.
just take the ball from me,
i'm damn tired.
i'm useless.

whenever i see your eyes,
i dunno wat to do...
i noe your eyes were filled with disappointment.
you dun trust me anymore.
i gave up.
i should just stop dreaming.
I SHOULD wake up,
but i can't.
i tried, but i still failed.
stop giving me hope, it's killing me.

2010-09-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

woke up at 7.50am.
had a bath and i'm still so damn tired. haiz
went to English Troubles organized by ms liauw just now.
from 9am to 3+pm...
compre session was more interesting than the compo session.
i ate mac breakfast at katib mac.
it's NICE (:

after the English Troubles,
accompanied jian xing to the salon for a hair cut.
haircut $2.50 only, nice. (:
haircut+wash+blow only $7 wor.
and REBOND ONLY $58. ^_^
lol it seems like i'm helping them to advertise their salon sia.
after jian xing got his hair cut,
hui ling and he went to take mrt home then jia ying and me go her hse play guitar.

played skateboard with jia ying and her sister this afternoon.
i was holding on to the wall lol
well, this is seriously the first time i play a skateboard.
but actually erm not very into it la.
just play play de
i tink her sisters are cuteeeee
unlike my brother. -.-

i left her hse at abt 6.10pm
then walk to the bus stop to take bus 812.
there are 3 seats, the first one i thought sat an indian guy, who has a stylish hair.
then i was looking for seat.
and i didn't really notice the "indian" guy.
then i walked past him, and he suddenly call NPL.
so i turned and saw jian ming.
then i was shocked tat he's there haha.
he said he went to play basketball just now
so we boarded the 812 to yishun interchange.
then i noe he lives in sembawang lol
went to board 859 from the yishun interchange.
so we chatted...
ok tat's all.

i muz stay at home tmr no matter wat
coz this whole week, from mon to fri, there's not even a single day
tat i stayed at home
and my mum was unhappy abt it, she said i spend a lot money bla bla.
and btw, my hwk haven't do.
i nid to finish them by tmr.
haiz soooooo damnnnnn tireddddd. D:
really dun feel like doing hwk -.-

lastly,

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
selamat hari raya!
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

For the time i wasted, i pity myself.

2010-09-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

went for the guitar rehearsal tdy. -.-
so damn tired, fingers like wan broken liao.
played volleyball after tat.
it's so damn hotttttt.
i was sweating like a tap.
and i was sunburnt!
i had a terrible headache!
D:

tmr going for English Troubles.
at ssc de starbucks.
haiz.
i'm so tired.
this whole week i didn't stay at home once.
incredible.
my mum angry le.
scold me for asking for money everytime. ):
my legs very tired.
i really dunno wat to do.

next mon nid to be in sch at 6.30am
erm i dun tink i nid to sleep liao la.
teachers tink we students are super humans? =.=
hwk haven't do.
sch starting soon, well, HATE IT TTM.
no CCAs :D
pineapple upside down on Mon -.-
so sleepy now~

I must say, NPL, u are so damn useless.
u are so dumb!
u nid to wake up!
u noe u can't do tis anymore.
u disappoint yourself again and again.
u should stop it.
u are so silly.
it's never possible, so stop thinking!
i beg u, pls. :'(

2010-09-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 8am
then went sch play volleyball with helen and jia ying.
played until 12pm.
and my slippers spoilt. =.=
so went northpoint with jia ying to buy a new pair of slippers.
HORRIBLE SLIPPERS!
then went KFC have my lunch and go woodlands
LZL and i went to buy tickets for haunted changi.
mathan not going, coz his mum confiscated all his money...
ok lor, so lzl and i go watch.
and it's so freaking scary when the female "ghost" pop out.
and too bad i'm the only one screaming. >.<
then got some ppl look at me, so ps leh.
I've not watch horror movie for years
but at least i didn't faint, BUT i wish i had...
lzl and i were freaking out.
i even watched until i got stomachache.
and tis is the first time i didn't finish the popcorn.
then after watching the freaking HAUNTED CHANGI,
we went SHOPPINGGGGGG.
btw, i lost my water bottle. :(
so i bought a new one at Guardian.
same colour as lzl's de.
die liao, go home confirm get scolded by mummy.
lzl bought a dress at john little for $9.90,
i bought 3 pairs of earrings for $6.90.
i'm so interested in buying different earrings recently.
dunno WHYYYY
i must start to save money le la, i spent so much!
had fun going to the fitting room and trying on clothes tdy. :]

I've totally screw it up.
well, i tink we can't make it to the very end.
pls dun give me false hope again
i can't take it anymore.
i just want to get u out of my head.
i feel so silly.
i dun tink u feel the same as how i feel for u.
let's stop here.

2010-09-06T21:03:00.003+08:00

hello.
CCA tdy from 9.30am to 2pm.
time passes really SLOWWWW~
i really can't wait for CCA to end lor.
i was damn tired tdy.
these few nights i haven't sleep well.
i just can't fall asleep...
i turn here and there, adjust the fan, adjust my blanket, adjust my sleeping position...
I JUST CAN'T GET TO SLEEP! >.<
then morning i dun wan to leave my bed.
and afternoon i was so tired tat i kept yawning non stop.
after CCA, went to have lunch at blk 110.
ate chicken rice and drank chestnut drink.
we went back to sch for volleyball. (:
before long, it started raining. :(
and it's raining heavily.
so we had to go into the shelter until the rain stop.
we were chit chatting abt stuffs.
& i can't stand it anymore.
i want to go toilet and do big business!
my stomach was very pain.
i stayed in the toilet cubicle for quite a long time.
then finally i'm done so i went back to find them.
it's still raining...
but after a while, the rain FINALLY stopped.
but the floor is still quite slippery.
and i was going to freeze coz of the weather.
played volleyball until 6.40pm...
boarded 800 with hui ling to the next stop.
and boarded 859 home.
it's cold on the bus too.
the last few stops b4 we alight i fell asleep. -.-
and hui ling took 3 photos of me sleeping!

Wed still got CCA.
9.30am to 2pm again...
hate it la. D:
seriously, FUCK THEM.

tmr going to watch haunted changi with Mathan and LZL.
pray hard tat i dun scream and have nightmares after tat.

LIFE IS SO INSANE!

2010-09-03T21:14:00.004+08:00

PTM tdy...
i woke up at 9am this morning although i set alarm.
rushing for the PTM thing la. ):
my mum still took her own sweet time and change slowly. >.<
damn pissed off with her attitude this morning.
then took 859 to sch
reached there alrdy 9.50am like tat liao.
i wan play volleyball instead of sitting in the classroom and accompany my mum.
IT's SO BORING there. -.-
then my mum chatted with jia ying's mum, gossip, discuss, agreeing with stuffs.
well, AUNTIES.
but i didn't noe they can hit off tat well LOL
NO. 18... FiNaLlY! ok so my mum talk & talk with ms ang,
dun like their conversation.
after my mum talk to ms ang,
she went to work and i stay back for the damn cca.
didn't get a chance to play volleyball. D:
then time passed REALLY SLOW~
well i mean REALLY slow. D:
sep hols still need go back for cca from 9.30am to 2pm! so sian.

went to play volleyball with the girls after cca. (:
tat was fun.
i was sweating like a tap.
they made me go take the ball for soooo many times.
so bad. xD
but still, it's fun.
went home with a tired face.
next tue going to watch STEP UP! :D
somebody's treating!~

never a failure, always a lesson.

anyway, fuck them.

2010-09-01T17:01:00.004+08:00

i'm so bored tdy!
finally i'm at home for one day.
tmr cca, sianz
fri PTM ):
after PTM still got CCA! crap. -.-
really dun feel like doing my hwk.
my blog is like DEAD?
yeah it definitely is.
it's okay, i understand ppl are busy.
i'm busy too.
busy wasting time.
gosh, i wasted another day of my life again.

my chinese compo and zuoye haven't do...
didn't play audi for some time.
-BUSY-
i haven't had a proper rest for a long long time.
didn't watch yu le bai fen bai for months.
but i still LOVE LUO ZHI XIANG! :D

i can only stand aside and look at u.

2010-09-01T15:05:00.002+08:00

helloooooooo
i love to slack but hate to work.
tat's me.
i had to force myself to study.
i'm pathetic.

although i miss cps, but i didn't go back ytd.
i dunno if i should regret or juz take things naturally.
nvm, still got next time (:

well, actually i feel so boring to update my blog la.
haizzzz
i tink also nobody will come and visit my blog,
so why bother writing.

i hate to do hwk >.<
i slept until 1.15pm tdy.
wat a pig i am.
but i guess i'm too tired.
i seem to lack of sleep everyday.
wat a lazy pig i am :P

i feel like changing my blogsong, it totally bores me.

hey boy, u sucks.
u are no different from her.
i'm wrong abt u.
can u juz shut up?
u pissed me off.

我以为我出现的时候刚好
也许我太过天真，以为奇迹会发生
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
他让我红了眼眶
我却还笑着原谅
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
我也不会输得那么绝望

every different paragraph means different things.

i tink i wasted another day of my life again.

2010-08-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

hello.
long time didn't update blog liao.
so tired.
ran a total of 10 rounds tdy.
4 extra rounds.
-.-
now my legs are soooooo tired.
played volleyball after CCA.
my gan jie and tissue paper are so funny!
they always joke around like ah gua.
LOL!
playing with them is fun (:
so stressed nowadays,
quite surprised tat my mum didn't nag/scold me tdy...
next tue teachers' day celebration.
wed is a holidayyyyy :]
need to prepare presents for my CCA teachers, dunno wat to buy leh ):
i still dun like my current seat.
i can't concentrate, i would still prefer to sit at the back.
i dun like teachers looking at me everytime leh.
i hate eye contacts with teachers.
lame creatures.
dumbass monnut, go call reg. no. 23,
then i had long forgotten most of the things learnt abt graph,
didn't revise.
and i'm so tired tdy coz of last night, i slept at 12+am.
and i hate mrs foo's voice.
CROW.
i miss mdm ng!
last time our teachers used to be quite ok.
now getting worse.
mr yong, mrs chua, mdm ng...
haiz.
feeling so tired now, only slept for 15min just now ):
my bro woke me up la.
how i wish i can go back to the age of a child. D:
BATTERY OPERATED.
ya ya, ur legs so gd la, i run slower than u dun need to be so proud lor!
KNS! siao de la. SHOW OFF.
U ARE SUCH A LAME FREAK!talk crap all day.
bye bye

2010-07-27T22:45:00.004+08:00

damn tireddddd~
nearly fall asleep during mr rama's lit lesson tdy!
ms dianah's too.
eyes going to close le.
do finish art liao.
damn clay.
made my hands so smelly and dirty!
tmr got art...
tdy's PE played volleyball. okay (:
unlike last week's match with monnut de grp lor.
damn boring sia.
tdy get to hit the ball a few times.
but i not gd at serving ):

LZL's romeo & juliet de book kena stolen!
too bad.
stupid asshole! go leave it under table, waiting for ppl to go steal!
eng i have to be the debate(P)! D:
got more than 41 pieces of paper,
but why muz i take the one with words!
why i so suay!!!!!!!!!!!!
now nid debate liao la. -.-
and somemore my team 3 boys, i'm the only girl ):
hate eng lesson, so L.A.M.E!
CCA until 5.
go home so tired.
我离不开你的眼神。
i've lost my courage.
ok bye.

2010-07-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

omg. look at my "beautiful legs".
i went swimming on Sat, 24 July.
swam for 3hrs, i tink.
and my legs become like tat. -.-
it's so dark!
Lisa even said my legs are so disgusting.
damn tired after swimming.
reached home at abt 2pm.
then slept from 3.40pm to 8pm!
ate dinner at 8pm. =.=
guess i'm tooooo tired. :P
my face got sun burned.
my hands and legs like chao da like tat lor.

just now my mum saw tat picture
and she say no nid to post bla bla.
she say can call frenz and tell them abt it. DUH?!
she dun even noe anything.
she won't understand.
she always dun understand and she never will.
it's so hard to communicate with her nowadays.
i talk to her, i also feel so tired la.
she never understand anyway.
why bother telling her things...
she keep thinking i'm becoming a very bad student.
but she wan go my sch and see????????
see liao she confirm keep quiet lor.
she become so sensitive and
when i say i nid go out or wan go out
she always ask me go with who.
i say frenz la, then she ask me which friend.
i told her and she ask me boy or girl. =.=
CAN'T STAND IT!
even if i go out with one or 2 boys with my frenz,
like in a group also cannot??!
she dunno tis is 21 century?
she also dun wan me to wear the shorts tat are too short.
last time pri sch she also didn't like tat!
sec one still ok.
sec 2 she keesiao liao lor.
ask until i'm like going crazy with her qns?
sometimes i wanna shut myself in my room and locking the door.
she always enter my room without even knocking the door.
no privacy.
even comp also put in living room.
still can see the comp from the kitchen!
wtf.
i feel like i'm being watched 24/7
I REALLY NID PRIVACY pls.
i nid some space to BREATHE.
stop suffocating me!

chinese test tdy.
the last compre quite difficult.
anyhow write lo.
tmr CCA and eng again. SIAN lurh!
tis morning woke up at 6.20am.
woah.
then missed the 6.40am bus.
took the 6.50+am de bus
reached sch at around 7.16am. ):
ok i go sleep le bye.

我越靠近你我越犹豫......

2010-07-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

hello, went out with LZL tdy.
i slept till 1.30pm this afternoon. omg.
i tink i'm too tired.
last night, when i use comp,
i really wan to fall asleep in front of the comp. -.-
my eyes looked terrible.
and i decided to go toilet.
but after i went to the master bed room de toilet,
i fell asleep on my parents' bed!
LOL
slept for abt 30min,
then my dad come in and tell me to wake up D:
he said later my mum scold. -.-
WHO CARES, it's so comfy.
ytd de cca ended at abt 3.15pm.
then hui ling and me go canteen and hang around till 6.15pm.
saw jian mei mei.
he dismissed from npcc,
then after he changed
we accompanied him go near the npcc room
he wanted to get back his phone and wallet.
and he is so scared to go into there
saw the ncc(sea) ppl there too.
saw aderick on the bus.
then near sembawang sec de bus stop got 2 shuai ge boarded the bus. (:
the one who wore a black shirt is more shuai.
then after we alight from the bus,
there got more 帅哥美女! :D
i tink they're all going to the canberra sec.
watched the last ep of xiang wo ni de shou.
DR YEAH SHOULDN't HAVE DIED. D:
i wan you qing and dr yeah to be together...
the fang kai should go with aizhen...
D:
and monday gonna show Ai. -.-
omg, i won't waste my time watching it.
i would rather go sleep.
I'm SERIOUSLY LACKING OF SLEEP.
mon got home econ practical. o.m.g =.=
hate it.

hello dumbass.
maybe u should just donate ur brain
to someone else who nid it more than u. -.-
i tink ur brain is just full of shit.
dun u tink so???
childish little brat.

2010-06-29T21:49:00.003+08:00

hello.
i'm DAMN PISSED OFF TODAY.
wat a rotten day
and seeing everyone's black face really sucks.
teachers giving students their stupid attitude everyday...
dun they noe tat the more they force,
the worse the situation is?!
STUPID.
got so many stupid scoldings from different teachers
i hate new teachers liao. D:
i HATE SCH, TEACHERS, EVERYTHING THERE.
i hate to go sch since p1.
SCHOOL TOTALLY SUCKS.
forget write name u throw on floor.
u who arh?
queen arh?
u wan other ppl to throw ur stuff like tat?!
ccb.
and my literature bk is lost. =.=
i read it tis morning in sch
and after recess, POOF! GONE!
then after tat damn boring lit,
ms ang's lesson. =.=
NO BETTER, seriously.
changing of seats. D:
and a chi goh pek sit beside me.
he's the one i really wanted to throw rotten eggs.
NO BACKBONE de chi goh pek still!
SI CHI GOH PEK, go die la.
ur shoes got magnets izzit? why muz u walk like tat?!
ur back dun have bone izzit?
why muz u slouch and walk like wat ah pek?
IT's SO EWWWWWWW!
i really hope u can disappear like my lit book. POOF!
everything gone berserk today...
everything sucks suddenly.
i dun even like to sit in the 2nd front row.
no privacy.
i'm very particular abt my privacy.
DUMBOS all dunno.
and i muz say, SORRY, I DUN HAVE A CHEMISTRY WITH TEACHERS
I CAN'T STAND THEM, I CAN'T TREAT THEM AS FRIENDS OR WATEVER.
coz i HATE them since p1.
TOO BAD...
they say they dun wanna scold ppl but they still scold.
teachers are WEIRD.
and they dun wan students giving them attitude,
then why give students tat kind of black face?!
dun understand.
why muz make it so complicated?
I HATE TO GO TO SCH D:
tmr is another miserable day.
TIRED OF IT.
i'm looking forward to the end of a day.
the end of a day means REST.
actually, changing of seating arrangement can affect a student's mood.
really.
so tat's why i can't stand their mind.
dunno wat they're thinking. -.-
if not for my future i would long skip sch!

2010-06-24T21:43:00.002+08:00

went to seoul garden with xiu hui today!
damn happy sia.
but i ate until stomachache lols
went to causeway point.
we took neoprints!! :D
had such a wonderful day with her. :D
BFF.
at first she wan the thai tom yam soup
then she told the cashier boy she wan thomson soup!
lmao.
tat's funny
even the waiter laughed.
so when we settled down,
we go take the veg, curry chicken, fishballs, prawns...
then put into the herbal soup.
the curry chicken we go grill it.
nice (:
but most of them are chaoda liao. lol
we had our buffet from 11.55am to abt 3.35pm.
then we go take neoprints.
played basketball. (:
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
it's great to have such a best friend like her.
we had known each other for abt 5 years.
wow.
i won't forget our memories. :D
now or future.
everytime her way of comforting me always work. haha
i always smile in the end. (:
then we went library and return a book.
and went back to sun plaza.
and walked home :)
had a great day without any worries and unhappiness.
& i love ur early birthday present. (:
thank you xiu hui ;D

2010-06-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

hello.
had a tiring day today.
wish i can fall asleep right now.
too bad comp more interesting haha
after cca went to blk 110 eat lunch.
the damn cai fan caused me to be so bloated. -.-
lend huiling $2.
then went to xue teng's hse do homec project.
but do only a while la.
they go facebooking.
and hui ling & me watch tv.
wah the hong kong shows hor got many evil ppl wor. lols
then huiling switched channel,
watched cartoons. lol
tom & jerry.
mr bean.
wat pink elephant, dunno wat's tat... haha
and she accidentally switched to one channel
got big bang mtv.
then tingjun xueteng & me wan watch tat
but hui ling dun wan, so she trying to switch channels
but the remote control siao siao de then can't switch
and before long
xue teng and hui ling fighting over the remote control
it's damn funny how they fight over it! hahahahaha
then watch the zhao ji xing guang da dao...
got huang jing lun
and i didn't recognize him at first
coz tat time his hairstyle different and very weird.
then after a while i saw his rabbit teeth!
HAHA then i noe it's him. so bad xD
then huiling & me played the minesweeper on the laptop...
ok la, very lame.
but we cheated then won lols
and we went home at abt 6.35pm
and on the 859,
we sang songs! :D
not too loud la.
had a great time singing songs :D
and alighted at 7.15pm...
hurried home.
and my dad had bought dinner le.
wah damn tired.
now i feel like sleeping but later on bed i can't fall asleep.
i'm such a WEIRDOoooooo
kay, bye.

2010-06-10T20:30:00.003+08:00

hey hellooooo.
went to watch karate kid today!
IT'S AWESOME!
i even cried.
believe me, it's worth my tears. (:
and when i went out of the theatre,
my eyes were damn red.
but lzl didn't shed a tear -.-
and sitting beside her was a FAT uncle!
he's always shifting himself. LOLS
watched until abt 5.40pm...
i even cried harder than the 2012.
i love movies by jackie chan :)
and we also went to a cd shop,
can rent disks there de.
maybe someday i go rent.

tmr CCA D:
sad lor.
haiz.

KARATE KID IS AWESOME! :D

2010-06-09T20:41:00.002+08:00

hello.
went to the woodlands regional library today
and we can't find a table to do hwk despite of the 4 storey library. -.-
and we saw a chair and so we sat there to do hwk
then a security saw us sitting down and he told us to stand and follow him
i tot we were in trouble or wat
but then he directed us to a seat tat had alrdy been occupied by 2 ppl in the end.
though it's quite kind of him, but it's very awkward to sit with a girl and a boy we dunno
and they have to shift their things away to give us space
OMG.
then we also can't talk very loudly in front of them. -.-
and we were like passing notes
and scared they will see
then after a while they also passing notes!!!
and we saw them write "eh they like very ku nao abt tat maths qns leh"
and below they write " go 英雄救美 la" =.=
the girl nth better to do arh.
and after a while they finally go have lunch.
i felt so uncomfortable sitting with them! D:
then we went to the breeks or greeks or watever at causeway point.
student meal only $5.90 but got ++ la.
and we +$1 for the soup of the day and one scoop of ice cream.
i ordered pasta with crabmeat topping :D
the soup damn delicious. :]
and the total bill is $16.25...
inclusive of GST and 10% service charge la. =.=
eat until so full.
then on the 962 bus on the way home, fell asleep HAHA
reached home at abt 5.40+pm?
DAMN tired.
ytd 1.30am then slept.
today kept yawning~
ok bye bye

AND PLS PLS TAG!
my cbox going dead le. -.-

2010-06-05T20:24:00.002+08:00

hello.
i feel like i've wasted one whole week. =x
17 june going to eat sakae sushi wif yi qi.
did the maths project until going crazy le.
i wrote the cards for the seniors who are stepping down.
i HATE to do projects...
and my geography 2C and 2D textbooks seem to be lost. -.-
i can't find these 2 books despite my whole morning of searching it...
i hate to do hwk D:
so frustrated.
HOLIDAYS ARE NOT FOR DOING HWK!
moe dun understand arh?!
meeting up with xiu hui on the 4th week. :D
finally!
miss her so much!
we've so much to talk abt.
saw kaung ytd.
and i'm wondering why everybody dun seem to rmb me when they saw me.
and they're like thinking very long who i am.
izzit coz i looked different from my pri sch look? =.=
i'm quite pissed off when they took a while to notice me.
sometimes they walked past me without realising who i am -.-
and some dun even say hello.
projects are driving me crazy!
and i'm not into free printing service, mind it.
some ppl just like to make use of me.
wat if i treated them tis way??
will they feel gd?!
hate to go CCA. D:
hate to go tuition.
i hate group tuitions.
when i go in, everyone's like staring at me.
hate tat feeling.
every morning no breakfast miserable sia.
somemore everytime i call mum when she's at work,
she NEVER pick up my call.
NEVER.
wat if i'm in trouble?!
can't she just pick up her hp?
wat's the use of it since she dun wan pick up calls?!
only pick up from my third aunt and the mother side de family izzit?!
i hate them.
they always comment on wat i wear when going out wif them
i wear the clothes, also not them!
got one time, i wore a knee length shorts.
then my uncle say it's short.
and i say it's not short at all.
hello? does he noe wat is short?
dunno then go shopping centre see la!
and he seemed a bit pissed off and said "i noe u have shorter ones right"
I'm THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE PISSED OFF!
and my aunt everytime only noe how to bribe my bro and me.
& SHE's VERY LAME.
hate her most.
my mum late, she scold like siao.
she late, we also didn't say anything la!
SIAO ZA BO.
no wonder still single.
alrdy 40 years old.
old hag lor!
get out of my sight.

2010-06-01T21:00:00.002+08:00

hey.
just now at sembawang library.
read books with hui ling.
read for hrs.
then our whole body became so stiff hahas
and i picked a bk called juicy secrets.
she picked a bk called the other boy.
then she will get high suddenly.
LOL
dunno wat happened la.
but it sure was relaxing.
i like to stay in library and enjoy nice books.
comics also (:
stay at home reading is different though.
the feeling is just so... not right?
aiya can't stand it la.
and today's maths olympiad de test paper made me wanna vomit. -.-
i can't even understand a qns.
then helen kept looking at my oas. =.=
and still asked me how i get it.
i say guess lor, like 4D and Toto.
got one qns got 14807 as a given no. blah blah blah
and the desperately dunno the ans so i just wrote 70841 as the ans.
noe how i get it? just turn 14807 to 70841.
tat's simple xD
jian mei mei still ask the cher wat if get 0.
LOLs
then the cher said nobody got 0 b4...
oh shit. =.=
then he bought me a very bling bling bracelet from china. -.-
scared die me lor.
the bracelet not suitable for me..
and got myself a new nickname from shermin HAHA
BLRING BLRING~
cca cher didn't come :D happy sia.
no stress :D
she didn't come is the best la!
i like "Dora, stop fucking around and get a GPS"
and "Dora. Are you blind? Dude. Swiper's right behind you."
HAHAHAHAHA damn funny.
LZL still dunno who's swiper.
"swiper no swiping!"
LOL!
since when i become so childish? HAHAHAHA
nvm.

going to play audi liao, dun wan get kick out of the new fam i joined. xP
kay byes.
TODAY IS A FUNNY DAY. relax pepos!

2010-05-29T13:39:00.002+08:00

hey tis morning i ate pizza for breakfast.
meeting yi qi for sakae sushi at the 3rd week. u dun appreciate it.
meeting xiu hui go seoul garden to celebrate my birthday early. :D
can't wait to meet her. just leave.
miss her sooooooo much! ;) u are not the worst...
june holidays nid go back tat damn sch for CCA. D:
hate it.
teachers just dun understand the word HOLIDAYS!
it's meant for us to rest and enjoy ourselves,
not bury ourselves in hwk, projects and CCA.
if tat's the case, it's no different from sch
just tat i get to sleep more.
DON"T U AGREE?!
hate MOE, hate teachers, hate the ppl in sch.
CCA driving me crazy,
feel so sian to do hwk lor.
read finish 'The Perfect Cut' ytd.
totally gross. -.-
but tat's the first time i cried when reading a book.
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Finally, he lifted his T-shirt and pressed the flat edge of the razor against
soft skin. Cold comfort. The tight ball of anticipation that had been festering
in his gut all day began to uncoil like a rattlesnake poised to strike. He moved
slowly, methodically, and when he could wait no longer, he ran the steel blade
with unhurried precision across his taut stomach... the cutting didn't hurt. If
only it did...
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his sister died 2 years ago
then he always blame himself.
and his dad was like rubbish.
unreasonable, mean and fierce.
his mum was afraid of his dad.
so he kinda hate his parents
and dun wan to eat dinner with them
or spend time together.
it's different when his sis is still alive.
his sis used to cut herself too.
but everyone thinks tat his sis is so perfect.

the story is really quite touching.
the perfect cut...
and btw, my bro sprained his neck!!! rofl!
it's damn funny if u saw his expression.
he's such a jerk,
retribution sia.
ok gtg le.
my bro's scolding. =.=
bye~

2010-05-26T20:38:00.002+08:00

hello.
today cross country.
damn tired.
met lao xiang, lao niang and jia ying at northpoint tis morning.
at 6.35am
i reached there first.
i told my dad to drive me there.
he refused to drive me to betok reservoir there coz
he will be late for work.
then i dun wanna get off the car sia,
at least there got air con.
and waited for 969,
it's damn crowded at the bus stop,
we have to squeezed ourselves up the bus lol
and when reached tampines int,
we took bus 22.
then walked for a while to reach the betok reservoir.
waited for the event to begin...
cross country nid to run 4.3km.
DAMN TIRED.
got 24 in position :D
then the kayaking...erm i not very gd at it la. =.=
then we went to have lunch at the food court near tampines mall.
and we went to the library there.
i nearly forgot to take my wet shoes home!
lols
and when i reached home, i washed my shoes,
nlow them dry and now still a little damp leh
slept for 3hrs and 30min,
sure was long... now so energetic le.
i even slept in the mrt! and my head went lower and lower lol
and it's so funny how those aunties run when they saw seats today!
IT"S SO HILARIOUS!
tmr ptm, wonder wat ms ang will say to mummy...
anyway, my parents won't even praise ppl de.
all they do is tell me tat i'm only lucky tat i didn't fail this or tat,
then tell me dun be happy ?!?!?!
wtf. where got parents like tat lor.
hate them la.
ok my dad's nagging -.-
bye bye

2010-05-23T09:22:00.002+08:00

replying tags now.
long time didn't reply tags le.

>jiaying: ty. (:
>SiHui 鍶慧:ty! :)
>Jiayi: thx! (:
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>Shermin!: ty (:
>Tingjun:ty :)
>SiHui 鍶慧: hi!
>Qingxi: thx u too ^^
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>Wayne:ty
>BEIZHI: hi. (:
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i continued! LOL
>yun xuan: okie, i love tat song (:
>qingxi: hey ty! :]
>yun xuan: hey laoxiang! (: thx for tagging.
>ZhiLing: lols, i hate my nose. -.-
>Jiayi: relinked! (:
>weihao: thx for tagging :D
>ZhiLing: hi laogong.
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>Sheikee <3: hey ty (:
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>qingxi: hey ty! :]
>Sheikee <3:ty
>weihao: ty! i will.
>ZhiLing: hahas thx for tagging
>Fanqlinq,:relinked!
>ZHI LING: HAHAHAHAHA

ok finished.
tag more kays.
later got tuition. ):
tmr got CCA D:
tmr got sch D:
later going to IMM for luo zhi xiang! :D
perhaps it's wat she HOPED for.
woke up early today. tired lurh, ytd 2am then sleep.
shall end here, bye~

2010-05-22T21:41:00.005+08:00

hello~

can't go to facebook now.

sad D:

dunno why leh.

plurking just now.

so sian~

tmr going IMM

for LUO ZHI XIANG! :D

monday got CCA D:

tue hope can go off early.

wed sports day

-kayaking. omg i'm not a gd swimmer.

thu PTM,

dunno if my mum is going.

well, she cares more on her money.

fri vesak day! :)

to laogong zhiling: bon voyage.

going to play audi later.

I JUST LOVE SATURDAY NIGHT! :D
i also dunno why hahas.

read finish a book borrowed from library this afternoon.

it's fantastic. (:

i love the story. (:

omg facebook, just stop connecting!

haiz.

sometimes i hate facebook!!

tmr still got maths tuition -.-

sian lor.

i want $2 for getting a1 for maths! :]

okie go play audi le la... bye bye~

2010-05-20T20:23:00.003+08:00

omg i dun like random ppl spamming my cbox to promote their things.
it's like not respecting me.
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HAIZ.
tis sunday going IMM.
for LUO ZHI XIANG!!
since i can't go his concert
then go shopping mall support him lor.
I'll take lots of photos of him! xD
going with zixin.
i tink i will go early coz later got a lot of ppl there.
IMM definitely earn lots of money tat day la.
bought i weekly just now (:
coz got SHOW LUO! <3

got back the result slip to check my marks today.
eng got c5 -.-
maths got a1 (:
sci got a2, 74... nice marks, isn't it?!
D&T got 74.1, a2. "fantastic la"
art got a2.
hist got a2.
geo and lit got c5. ):
hcl got b4.
L1R5 14.
i only got one A1 leh. sad lurh

damn sian now.
tmr got to go CCA. D: D: sad sad sad!
自high all day today
kept laughing in the sch library today. HAHAs
the librarian erm looks a little like mr chua. LOL
funny~
haiz i wanna stay at home and hide from the outside world la.
stressed out!
playing audi later.

kays bye bye!

2010-05-14T08:32:00.002+08:00

hey 6 more days my blog will be 2 yrs old!!
hahas. wat am i to u???????
dun wish to delete tis blog coz there's a lot memories.
May 2008 till now.
these few days using facebook, played audi.

ytd was a terrible day actually.
i had a terrible stomachache...
i went to the toilet 3 times.
after i went to the toilet 3 times,
i sit down at the comp chair and wanted to start playing audi.
but my hands, the whole body felt weak.
then my lips become a little white.
omg. i had long given up.
i dunno wat i had eaten.

exams finish lo... did u care?! DID U CARE?!
feels quite bored at home leh.
feel like asking pri sch frenz to go out together
but i scared their exams are not over.
few days ago,
xiu hui and i were fighting over the seoul garden treat.
lols. think of ur own flaws first
at first i wanna treat her
but then she kept argue with me
she feels bad i also feels bad de lor.
then in the end 我说不过她
and i suggest tat when her birthday i treat her to sakae just want some peace pls
but she dun wan. -.-
haiz xiu hui never changes. lols
but she's such a great friend! :D
I LUV YA, XIU HUI! =D
i plead hard to my dad to tell him to get rid of the internet timer
after exams and now he finally inactivate le. =.=
i hate the timer la
it's damn irritating why should i when u didn't?!
when i play audi halfway, it will dc and there'll be no internet connection!
kns. u didn't even care abt my feelings.
my dad so unreasonable, tat's the way he control my bro and me. D:
haven't eat breakfast yet,
ytd mummy bought pizza..
i think i'll have tat as my breakfast bah. :D
ok bb

2010-05-10T20:46:00.002+08:00

woohoo, tmr's last paper! :D
and now i too excited to study le.
ytd was audi di di de birthday.
happy birthday to audi di di. (:
9 MAY

smsed him ytd.
he surprised hahas.
ytd mother's day...

母亲节快乐
to mummy.

these few days de weather damn hot la.
at home so stuffy...
today's HCL paper was totally ruined by me. D:
i dunno wat the qns are asking lor, it's just so chim.
can't stop thinking tat tmr is the last paper. lols
now my face got more than 3 pimples. oh gosh...
hate it!!! x_x
hey i hate the ppl who stand so close to u on the bus then lift their arms up to hold the handle!
it's damn inconsiderate, get it?
22 may is xiao zhu's concert...
can't go. cry die me le, parents say will end very late then dun let me go.
i so sad sia. can't go his concert!
ate mango cake just now (:
<3 MANGO. :D it's nice.
ok bye bye.

2010-04-28T20:27:00.002+08:00

hi.
maybe from tmr onwards i won't be updating blog until exams are over.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA.
(although i dun like him so much.)
history was ok today.
literature was fine too.
geography... BORING.
i dun like the chp on rivers and agriculture.
they sucks.
chinese... i dun like zhao lao shi as much as in term 1 le.
i find her stubborn,unreasonable and annoying sometimes.
she didn't even teach the some topics then told us to do those exercises in the zuo ye...
i dun even noe how do lor.
recess ate the bee hoon... OMG it's totally freaking me out la
it's awful!~
english... also nearly fell asleep.
the class was so quiet.
ms liauw talked abt tackling summary today.
then wei jie fell asleep in class during eng lesson...
and ms liauw told us to class stand
and when he heard us standing up,
he immediately stood up
and everyone's looking at him.
the way he woke up was damn hilarious!
HAHAHAHA!
i remember when i was p1,
during an exam when teacher's going to collect the exam scripts,
the last boy slept so soundly
then ms kaur knocked on his table for a few times
and stretch out her hand to collect the paper
then the boy suddenly woke up and give his hand to ms kaur
instead of the paper! LOL!
music lesson many ppl didn't bring the fretboard today
he also didn't tell us to bring...
music lesson... fine la. but i can't rmb those chords.
geography extra lesson in the afternoon...
it's damn boring.
everyone's restless.
and the class was so quiet...
tat lesson i really feel like sleeping.
stayed back till 5pm in sch
then went home le.
did my chinese hwk juz now and i fell asleep...
till 7.45pm.
wah so tired.
gonna sleep earlier tonight.
kept yawning.
ms ang said she dun wanna see cockroaches tmr. -.-
tat means she dun wanna see any feelers
and i have to clip up everything tmr. D:
she's NAGGING everyday and i can't stand her voice.
clipping up my hair=ruining my hair.
i hate to clip up my hair!! =.=
her hair also no better la.
cut until so weird.
recent weather is not suitable for studying at all.
hot in the morning
then raining like siao in the late afternoon
everybody's getting sick.
i'm being tortured by my nose everyday now.
coz i have a VERY sensitive nose and whenever it's going to rain,
my nose will go siao le, and itch like siao.
i can't stand it.
i feel like having a nose transplant.
stop taking my things without my permission peopos.
i tend to lost quite a lot of things recently.
i paid for the things, not u.
so now i can't allow self service with some of my things.
so srry uh, but i'm left with no choice.
u dunno how desperate i am when i lost things.
to prevent me from going siao, pls ask for permission b4 u take my things.
so i will noe who took it. tyvm.
christ called me today and talked crap
C: hello puay lin arh.
Me: hello, why u call me?
C: coz i wan to ask u sth la
Me: what
C: can i borrow ur cute cute eraser with the strawberry shortcake pic?
Me: u mean the one i wanted to throw away?
C: yes yes... i want it for art.
Me: art? art need to use meh...
C: yeah la, teacher said draw sth abt strawberries.
Me: so u planning to draw my eraser?
C: no.
Me: then?
C: strawberry shortcake is the one i'm gonna draw.
Me: then u might as well find the pic from the internet.
C: my internet got prob la just lend me this sunday.
Me: sunday got sch meh
C: then monday.
Me: next monday is a public holiday leh
C: oh... actually i dun nid strawberry shortcake de watever eraser la
i'm just talking crap to u. HAHA! i'm so bored now leh
Me: 去死啦！
C: relax girl. just playing.
Me: it's so lame lor.bye bye
*hangs up*
isn't he LAME?!
last time he pranked call me at 2am.
and he rubbed his hands on his bedsheet
and a weird sound is produced...
then i'm like so angry with this person the next day
and when he called again i rejected his call. hahas
i rejected his calls for 2 wks.
maybe next time i'm not going to pick up his calls!
such an annoying freak. =.=
kayy bb.

2010-04-25T21:50:00.003+08:00

dun u think 水蜜桃姐姐 looks like 黄慧？
the 1st picture is 黄慧 then the other two are 水蜜桃姐姐. i dun wanna do work with u.
i find a few angles from their faces quite alike...
i got tis idea when i was watching 我猜我猜我猜猜猜 last saturday.
i suddenly realized she looks like one person i knew in singapore.
then i managed to rmb lols i dun nid u to do work wif me.JUST STOP ANNOYING ME WITH UR EWW FACE LA!
juz tat 水蜜桃姐姐 de cheeks not so puffy like 黄慧...
since u hate me then dun nid to smile in front of me, u looks like u are the cheapest slut.
siao za bo la! nth better to do izzit. think i like to sit close u meh, sitting close u is so miserable.
feel like sleeping in class during hist lesson today.
i tink ms ong saw it la, my eyes gonna close...
her voice plus the fan, just stayyyy away from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
really makes me wanna go to sleep.
exams coming & i'm like totally stressed out...
omg. u are nth but a coward actually. COWARD, just scram pls.
i haven't reviseeeee!
maths olympiad finally finish! (: u started it, not us. said i complain, oh plsss, aren't u a bitch too?
haiz... i hate fakos. I HATE U TOO. i dun even wanna talk to u
i hate to go sch and face ppl i dun like.
there are really all kinds of ppl in sch. i dun nid ur fake smile. it's throughly DISGUSTING. hate u ttm la
i tink one day i will become crazy.
i find tat my time is just not enough. ):
TAGGGG b4 u go.

2010-04-25T20:40:00.003+08:00

tat's so fake, dun u tink (:
i'm obviously online yet it says my status is OFFLINE.
read finish 2 storybks today and ytd!
both almost 300pages.
abt romance...
just random borrow then found out it's abt romance, hahas
i dun have much appetite today.
so i WASTED food.
so unlike me, lols.
i dun quite like to waste food, dunno why
but it happens all the time when i was younger.
i always give the food which i cannot finish to my parents.
tuition got a snack as a reward tdy.
nobody ask u to tag a long pls.
hey watching a little of stars award juz now...
exams coming, stressed~
exams over still need to go for CCA.
sian la.
I WANT TO RELAX.
there's a price to be paid for it.
when u gain sth, u always tend to lose sth too.
so unfair.
i wonders how yuwen can be so cheerful.
i used to be cheerful and optimistic in pri sch.
but ever since i came to tat suckish sch which is so budget,
i lost myself.
in my watever lala land
and i'm not happy everyday.
everyday just sucks.
dare u to say u not bitch la!stop acting like u own the world..
everytime i tries to be cheerful
there will always be sth tat will upset me.
tired of it.
i can't really imagine wat will happen when i'm in sec 3.
maybe more disaster... =.=
i have to buried myself in supporting xiao zhu.
tat will keep me happy for some time.
parents made me really unhappy nowadays.
dun like the huang jun xiong lor.
esp HIS VOICE.
so damn weird.
oh so u think u are tat great??nobody likes u plz.eww.ur taste is so bad la.
just like wat a person said to the whole class when u're not around. i tink it's well said.ty arh
ok bye bye...~
AND TAG :)

2010-04-23T21:00:00.001+08:00

love this song. :D
ethan ruan and mark chao are shuai. (:

2010-04-23T20:44:00.002+08:00

went to sun plaza just now.
then go there popular renovation wor. -.-
saw hui xin there.
wearing half uni.
and we went to the library together,
i borrowed 4 bks.
and we discussed abt chemical equations,
universal indicator, acids and alkalis...
now i noe how to balance chemical equations le.
thank you hui xin.
damn hungry today, dunno why.
accompanied lao gong LZL to run 2.4km today.
grats on passing.
maths hwk haven't do.
just now went to give hui ling's present.
i think i will wash my shoes tmr.

i feel tat this year i not happy at all.
at least last year got a lot of things to laugh.
life is more interesting last year than this year,
dun u agree?
audi now got 2x exp.
kns lor.
now 2x exp, but exams coming!
nth to look forward to la.
exams over also bad, CCA will resume D:
will earlier tonight.
so sleepy now.
kay go play audi liao.
bye bye

2010-04-23T14:38:00.004+08:00

feel so tired today.
didn't wear specs now, can't see clearly.
i hate ungrateful ppl.
i think i shouldn't even bother abt her today
and who wants u to be in the same class as me next year la!
siao.
didn't even say a thank you, and still dare to say things abt me
when u're JUST BESIDE ME.
i can see everything. nice 1.
you're just a flirt pls.
stop acting like u own the whole world.
dun think idk wat u've done.
dun think i can't see.
aren't u a lame freak?
sometimes i dun wanna bear grudges but u always made me
so annoyed by wat u have typed.
think i like to sit beside u de meh!
u said we pretended but u are a cheap slut. -.-
ur acting skills are superb.
am i right?
act until i dun wanna bear grudges sometimes.
but the moment u used the comp,
i noe wat u are going to write.
SUCH A GOOD FRIEND, i must make this "compliment".
ungrateful bitch.
i dun wanna write abt u in public,
but now u made me lost my patience.
srry then.
i'm actually doing wat u did to me.
how will u feel? i'm curious.
u must be so angry. tat's my motive ty.

going to fall asleep in class today.
reached home at 1.30pm, great.

stupid squirrel fuck off with ur cabbage.

2010-04-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

I MISS CANBERRA PRIMARY SCHOOL!!!!!!
i've so many gd memories there lurh.
UNLIKE AI. =.=
AI is like... i'm living in misery in AI.
everyday sucks like hell.
lessons made me so sleepy.
teachers there are extremely weird.
hates to do hwk!!!!
and ms ang's nagging EVERYDAY.
feels so tired everydayyyy.
MYE coming, hate it la.
only tat CCA suspended.
tat's the only gd thing la.
i'm beginning to hate chinese now. =.=
eng was boring tdy.
met xiu hui as she wanna pass me some papers
and we chat for nearly 1 hr. :D
i'm damn happy to talk to xiu hui,
but when i got home my mum in bad mood
then i 7.45pm play audi and she scolded me.
and caused my whole family to become so unhappy.
seeing my pri sch frenz can make me so happy.
yet my parents had to ruin my mood. D:
made frenz with my junior today.
CPS junior and AI junior hahas.
he's from choir.
this year sec 1.
from canberra pri last time.
he's called Wayne Neo.
same sirname as me. HAHA!
k going to continue hwk now
bye bye!

2010-04-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

so tired today.
coz got NAPFA.
hate tests.
tmr got lit test. =.=
i hate lit la.
it's so chim...
smo was boring.
i'm so thirsty nowwww.
feel like drinking ice lemon tea now.
went home at abt 6.30pm today.
when i walking home from the bus stop i alighted,
i saw pang yu heng and gene.
they said hi.
at least they said hi to me.
haiz miss my pri sch frenz lurh.
whenever i see them i can smile all day.
i miss them so much. :(
gtg le, bb.

2010-04-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

i've been doing maths hwk and did filing from afternoon till evening
but when mum came back, everything changed.
there was so peace at all.
she nag & nag.
NON stop...
after dinner i go play comp
then she saw it
and she nag again.
i wish her mouth can shut up.
she didn't see my effort, all she do is scold me everyday without a reason.
i did hwk, she also scold.
wat does she wants?
i feel so sad.
she said i so lazy, not keen to learn anything.
is not tat i dun wan learn
is she dun even have time to teach me!
i dun like her at all.
she always dun understand wat i am talking abt.
D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

stressed out!!!!!!!!!!!!
i nid to release stress somehow.
or i will really keesiao le.
next wk no CCA.
hate teachers of AISS.
in CPS i bow to every teacher i see when walking past them
but i never bow to any teachers in AI b4.
i didn't even bother to greet them properly in class.
all i do is mumbling.
tat's the great difference.
i hate teachers from the day i entered sch
but i didn't really hate the teachers in CPS as much as AI's.
AI teachers sucks to the core. -.-
i hate teachers who always like to call pupils' index no.
i hate it.
i dun like ms chia, i dun like ms liauw and other teachers too.
I HATE THEM!!!!
although they didn't do anything to me, I JUST HATE THEM
i hate them as much as i hate school.
i hate to go home too.
home sucks!
i can't do the things i like
the only thing i like to do at home is sleeping.

and bei zhi, STOP TRYING to WIPE MY FACE WITH TAT DIRTY CLOTH! =.=
later my face become dunno wat u muz take full responsibility hor.
siao za bo...haiz.
nvm at least u provided me with some entertainment (:

ok bye bye liao.

2010-04-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

ate pizza for lunch today.

ate 3 pieces.

drank pepsi.

didn't buy wan bao today... ):

it was raining when i alight from the bus.

so tired now.

this weekend i'm gonna stressed out.

got a lot hwk.
art still nid draw the stupid starry night thing.

lame lame lame.

next wk got sci test...

next fri got d&t test on sketching -.-

i dun have much confidence on it.

i dun like d&t.

i hate eng too.

mdm ng not teaching us maths in 2nd semester le D:
so sad sia.

better dun change into a mr luo or ms liauw de.

i will faint.

my grandma's in hospital now,

her leg swollen...

my mum's in a bad mood.

now scolding me for hwk. D:

siao zha bo la

i hate them.

they ytd didn't even buy dinner or left sth for us to eat lor!!

she went to friend's hse after work,

dad still working.

so dun haf dinner

then i got home at abt 7.15pm...

so tired le

and we have to eat cup noodles. =.=

i hate to go sch and go home.

these 2 places sucks.

i'm so tired today yet mum's nagging.

can't she juz understand my situation?

she dun even noe the life in sch.

it's disaster.

she dun even noe how i feel when going to sch.

she dun even noe how i feel when doing hwk

and she dunno wat i'm thinking.

she busy i not busy meh.

can't she juz let me have some peace?

everyday not enough sleep,

i very happy izzit?

i dunno how to let out my anger sometimes.

all i can do is play audi and let my fingers do all the actions.

after playing audi, everything's back to normal again

and the another day starts with a restless look again

she angry then anyhow scold ppl.

i can't even scold!

wtf does she wants?!

long time didn't see her smile.

i find her so irresponsible.

i dun even dare to ask dad to give me a lift to sch sometimes.

i noe he's tired, i noe everyone's tired, my bro's having his psle tis year

and he had to stay back more than 3 times a wk.

everybody's tired.

but did they care abt me?

they're so selfish.

PTM now also dun wan come, i dun even see them more than 6hrs a day. =.=

am i happy? NO.

everyday they have to scold ppl.

bad mood scold ppl unreasonably.

izzit fair? NO.

she never understands.

even thursday i woke up at 6.30am

and get to see her in the morning,

we always end up having different opinions

and i'm tired of it.

if tat's the case, i will choose not to talk to her at all.

she thinks i'm getting worse.

but has she ever come to my sch and see the ppl there?

she can't see any of my effort.
i juz feel so sad.

we dun get along these days.

exams are coming,

getting more frustrated.

i just everything to end.

bye bye

2010-04-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

heyyy,
went for the homec thingy today...
the talk was longggggg -.-
then explore the health zone place.
was quite interesting.
looks like the sci centre. lols
then on the way back(on the bus),
jian xing mei was sitting behind me
and i sat wif laogong.
then the teacher go sit beside him.
and we dun really care actually.
after a while, we were so bored.
many ppl fell asleep.
then we commented on the drivers of the cars at the highway.
we checked their figures.
we can't really see their looks, only their 身材.
then we kept laughing.
laughing really hard. :D
but too bad tat teacher spoilt our mood. =.=
she said "why are u so mean? 不要一直批评别人" bla bla bla.
then we were like so pissed off!
but it was still funny.
she care so much for wat.
we were only looking for our own entertainment.
nth wrong. =.=
old hag.

really wish i can go xiao zhu's concert...
parents dun allow. D:
XIAO ZHU~ ):

changed my blogskin. (:
the previous one so sian le.
so change lor.
this time didn't spend me long to settle the blogskin. :D

tdy give back maths topical test on graph, got full marks :DD
received a lollipop.
ok, better than nth.

going to sleep le, ByE ByE! (:

2010-04-12T21:46:00.007+08:00

nice one, NPL.
read all you want la, stupid kpo.

2010-04-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

hello.
quite long didn't post?
eh tag leh. my cbox very dead.
so boring.
went to causeway point with LZL today.
bought new wallet! =D finally.
ever since my wallet lost,
i've been living in misery.
i miss my old wallet.
today saw a similar one
but inside can't put coins
then i didn't buy tat lor.
haiz.
cost me $12.90.
then topped up my ez link card le.
went to library do hwk.
sit in front of a man who was using laptop
and when he burped, we laughed like siao.
i tried not to make any laughing sound
but my shoulders are shaking!
i was laughing non stop.
everytime i saw my laogong laughing
i will talk halfway then laugh.
LOL
and we are so ps in front of tat man! lmao
after doing hist hwk,
went to the cafe to eat potato chunks and chicken chunks.
total $3.80
feel like going timezone but no money.
it's been long since i go there.
didn't earn tickets recently.
i earn tickets coz if i go causeway point then no money to buy food liao
still can go timezone exchange for snacks.
haiz so BORINGGGGGGG.
there's nth to look forward to anymore.
holidays are the only hope
but after holidays, everything turn into disaster again.
HATE IT.
i wanna buy luo zhi xiang's 舞法舞天 album leh
cost $28.95 =.=
I WANT FREE MONEY!
life is so deaddddd.
exams are coming.
haven't even revise much.
streaming...streaming...troubled troubled.
HAIZ.
BYE BYE

2010-04-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

2010-04-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

heyyyyy
HAPPY APRIL's FOOL DAY. :D
i didn't fooled anyone and nobody fooled me today.
today was BORINGGGG...
haiz.
so tired now.
my mum dun let me go xiao zhu's concert. D:
she's always like tat. =.=
was so sad.
khong sauman, i hate u.
i just hate u damn lot now.
u're so WEIRD,
why muz u make yourself not appetizing????
HOPELESS.
only noe how to kiekang...
dun think you're so pro la.
my nose was terrible in the afternoon!!
it's so itchy!!
i had running nose after tat and even tears rolled down.
tired and dizzy.
everytime when it rains,
my nose will irrtates me until so hard to tolerate anymore!
yet helen, strawberry and jian xing mei kept laughing at me!
still say want to use class fund to buy coffin for me!
then strawberry said maybe class fund also not enough.
why are they so heartless??
i'm feeling so terrible there yet they're still laughing non stop.
BAD! xD
ok,
shall end here today.
ps i long time didn't reply tags le.
will find time la.
BYE.

2010-03-24T15:26:00.003+08:00

hello,
my cbox is quite dead again!!!
TAG PLZZZZZ.
last night do art until 12.15am
so tired now.
hist, maybe i will do badly
coz i didn't study the political parties and elections.
OH NO.
literature was so BORING!
mr rama talked CRAPPY stuff.
weirdo.
geography,
omg unreasonable ms dianah
is really so 欠扁 la!
check mind map then said sarcastic stuff
then no chp 23
she say got
and when she found out she's wrong,
didn't even say anything.
stupid attitude of hers...
hate her damn lot
so wat if she study so much and study overseas?!
then go RGS teach lor
dun come here and talk nonsense.
then got spot test and when she's drawing the volcano
on the board,
we all go flip pages of the geography bk
lols.
and i saw cone, magma and the ferr dunno wat.
then she say can write the liquid oso.
so i wrote magma, cone and larva
but lava spelled wrongly.
and the next qns
i completely dunno wat it is.
luckily wei jie told me is pacific ring of fire.
and the last one
i noe dormant, active and extinct.
and only noe one example of dormant volcano tat is mount fujiyama.
hate ms dianah ttm. -.-
after geo is chinese.
haiz read the poems...
and yalun talked crap... -.-
after recess,
ENG.
which i hate a lot.
last time mrs chua teach i'm dun hate eng so much
but ever since ms liauw taught us,
i hate her and eng lessons.
every eng lesson i hope the time can go faster.
ms liauw was VERY VERY LAME!
she tot we are pri sch kids izzit??
do silly stuff.
then will pick on anyone.
but why am i always so suay?!!
everytime i NOE she wanna call me
just tat she dunno my name.
then today she wanted to call me
coz i saw her eye contact
but she dun rmb my name.
then when she told us to take one thing for personification,
i took scissors.
and she come to me and said "i like the scissors one!"
OMG TAT's the MOST LAME THING i've ever heard...
just because she wants to call me then choose the scissors. -.-
lamest teacher i've ever seen
even my pri sch teachers oso didn't like tat lor.
everyday wear black and grey...
she not sian i oso very sian la.
after eng, music.
watched high sch musical 2
coz ms ang didn't come today.
sci... Emily Tow(ET) de lesson.
studied the visking tubing and concentrated sugar solution bla bla
actually i'm not stress at all during her lesson
coz if u dun agitate her,
she's ok.
i dun detest her, i detest her voice.
haiz just now my bro want me to rush back home
just coz he wants me to lend him my thumbdrive!
last night oso didn't ask for it la
then just now blame me.
idiot.
today no CCA, happy.

ok bye bye then.

2010-03-20T09:03:00.002+08:00

hi.
1 more day to sch...
ahhhhhhhh!
can't stand holidays!
why muz holidays be so short?!
and teachers always think we so free during holidays
actually we're like damn busy!
1 wk dunno go back sch how many times le.
hate it la.
hwk only did maths and chinese, halfway.
i haven't do any compo yet!!
oh gosh,
i noe i'm not going to finish my hwk on time
nvm everyone's the same. :)
haven't buy my sch shoes!
sch shoes had been ruined during ole camp.
desperate desperate desperate!
1 wk only watched yu le bai fen bai 2 times.
so sad!!!!!!!!!!
miss xiu hui...
miss a few pri sch frenz.
long time no contact le.
so sad!!!!!!!!!!!
ytd i was so silly.
when i taking my scissors to cut sth,
while walking i was sort of slicing my index finger using the blade!!
then now got 2 cuts.
but luckily my skin is not very thin
so only cut my skin
didn't cut my flesh.
i was stiffed ytd!
i told my bro then he said i so lame. -.-
i stayed still for abt 5min trying not to look at my cuts.
for ur information,
i'm very sensitive to blood and wounds.
so i can't be a doctor in the future...
whenever i look at blood or wounds
i can't control myself,
and i will be very stiff suddenly.
wah my facebook got a person really so zi lian la.
everyday when i on9
i will definitely see her zi lian photos.
but her looks still ok,not too bad.
ytd watch Down With Love on youtube until ep 11 le! :D
the ding hui fan hor KNS lor.
so selfish and only noe how to make use of ppl!
slut la.
yang guo and xiang yu ping oso very dumb.
love is not blind.
lovers are blind.
ok le, i posted for the sake of keeping my blog more alive.
pls continue to tag at my cbox, ty.
really hate to go back to sch la.
have to face unreasonable teachers like ms dianah,
who always had a aggrogant look on her face.
eww, think she princess arh
too big-sized le la.
zhao lao shi her voice really makes me so headache when she read passages!
why muz she drag the words?!
even if she's from china oso dun nid to drag until so 假
ms ang, her voice oso no better.
whenever i hear her voice
i dun feel like listening.
ms liauw,
no fashion show, no colour change
everyday wear dull coloured clothes,
black, grey.
even the students look at her oso wanna sleep la.
teachers are crazy creatures.
they're so lame sometimes.

ok bye bye.

2010-03-11T21:11:00.006+08:00

BACK FROM CAMP last night,

this morning damn tired de.

6.30am muz be in sch -.-

haiz dun even haf time to sleep la!

tmr still got concert!

SO STRESSED.

i did the low elements, the wall thing during camp! :D

it's great to have some achievements. :)

2 boys carry the legs then lift me up and

my instructor and other ppl used their hands to grab me up

at the top. (mind tat the person in tat pic is not me)>>>>>>>>>>>>

not so scary la.

but didn't get to do the high elements

coz haf to rush back to sch for CCA!

kns la!!

i'm not going for the YOG.

i will haf a breakdown if i go for tat!!

siao la.
gd luck for my concert tmr bah.

hopes everything goes fine.

haiz... really very stressed leh

i hate to be divided into different teams and got separated

from my frenz and classmates! :(

hate tat lor.

so sad lurh...

team up with the ppl i dunno is so miserable.

then team 3 only got me and ting jun.

and when we do the kayaking we're like so blur. lols

we made so many u-turn and still can't.

then even got waves wor.

i hate to bath at camps,

eat there.

it's disgusting

even the bed is disgusting.

the other activities still ok.

i slept beside helen!

the first night there was so terrible,

the fan kept blowing on my face!

then got spider webs. -.-

and i used the blanket to cover my face lor

then helen find it so cold there and kept covering herself with

her jacket

while i was so hot under my blanket and in the middle

of the night i kicked my blanket away.

wonder wat's wrong wif helen lols

then my jian xing mei is so siao during the whole camp la

siao za bo.

mei say "she" is pregnant!! LOL

the child is "Strawberry"'s.

omg lor.

i was eating strepsils everyday during camp leh!

OMG.

now sore throat still haven't recover!

haiz.
happy and sad incidents happened during these few days.

tat's normal...

campfire i tink ole 1 de is better?

lols.

maybe coz with classmates then more fun
my group name wat siew mai.

siao.

i dun like tat instructor ahmad

sometimes he's funny but he's also unreasonable.

my instructor Nam is WEIRD lols!

when he helped me apply medicine,

he asked me wat's my queue no.

then say he's a professional, tell me dun be scared.

and he poured alcohol on my wound.

then quite pain la.

at first i tot he's a malay

then got one time he suddenly sang chinese song

then i asked "u chinese arh?"

and he said " of coz la, i dun look like chinese meh? wapiang eh"

LOLs

ps la.
ok bye bye.

rmb to TAG!!!

sometimes i JUST wish all these will STOP IMMEDIATELY.
why muz human beings make things so complicated?
things aren't always as perfect as we had imagined.
it's so hard to predict wat will happen next.

i want u.

but our fate had ended.

i wished i can rewind back the time.

2010-03-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

OFF TO TAT STUPID CAMP TMR.
4days 3 nights or perhaps for me, only 3days 4nights?
ok watever.
so not looking forward to it.
i hate to pack things for camp. -.-
it's frustrating...
and i hate camps.
only do silly stuff. ):
haiz
away for the time being so probably
not going to update blog for a few days,
but tat doesn't mean u dun tag!
continue tagging (:
freezed my karma...
so miserable la
now 80.59... ):
my bag gonna be heavy~
ok SAYONARA!

2010-03-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

hello, this is the 265th post. (:
haven't even reach 300...
tmr jian xing mei, jia ying nu er and my beloved laogong,zhiling
will be coming my hse to do the alvin and the chipmunks 2
music project.
helen not sure if she wanna comes la.
sui bian them lor.
haiz damn tired today.
hates to do hwk lor...
next wk OLE 2,
and i'm not in the least looking forward to it actually.
i'm juz wasting my edusave money.
going there but the afternoon not there...
kept yawning wor.
and i find tat are increasing bitches.
too bad so sad.
there are always unreasonable ppl around me.
they dun seem to get it.
and too long didn't reply tags le.
now my blog is like dead?!
omg tag pls!
dun come,read,go.
let me noe u're here! unless u're guilty of sth tat's why u dun tag?

i've never seen such a thick skined person in my life.
she's juz so childish and still say ppl childish.
she act cute,say ppl act cute.
she show off kia still say others show off.
only she can critisize ppl,ppl cannot critisize her.
ppl joke with her she angry, she joke with ppl, they cannot be angry.
she talk nonsense ppl didn't say anything, ppl talk nonsense she say lame.
she fail keep quiet, ppl fail laugh at them.
she pass with flying colours she so proud,ppl pass with flying colours, say they copy.
ppl beat her or poke her she angry like siao, she poke or beat ppl, ppl cannot scold her back.
OVERALL, she's nth but a useless bum.
despise her.
when she dun get her way,
she screamed and make a fuss over it.
but when ppl dun get their way, she's being sarcastic.
ppl make mistake she happy, she make mistakes ppl cannot laugh.
she only cares abt herself.
selfish girl.
i hate u.
i've been tolerating ur attitude
yet u're treating me tis way.
how can u do tis?
u noe how to say ppl until they're so useless,
but u dunno how to say urself.
unfair.
there are too many words to describe u.
awful words.
u juz sucks to the core k?!
boot lickers, teachers' pet.
DESPISE U TTM.
u made me so annoyed.
stop hurting my pride and me with ur hurtful words.
they juz offended me.
i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u.
i feel like crying when u always make things difficult for me.
why muz u do tat?!
juz because u dun like me??
dun like me, u tink i like u meh!
u always corrected me when i'm not really wrong.
so why dun u go correct yourself?!
i can't stand ur stupid voice.
when i say u, u not happy at all
then when u say me, u damn happy
and when i dun care, u just keep pestering me like wat cockcroach.
get lost, stay away from me, u're so dirty.
i dun feel happy when i'm with u, silly ill-bred child...
to believe u have stead b4.
omg gonna puke.
u made me feel like crying on the spot.
u GET LOST.
i wish u can disappear and never appear again.
lame lame lame
u're so lame.
talk a lot of crap during lesson time.
can't u just shut up?! dun think ur voice is so nice.
it's awful. extremely disgusting.
sometimes i really feel like leaving u behind and dropped everything.
u're quite a burden
i feel like stitching ur silly mouth tat doesn't have any encouraging words.
u dun fit to be my friend.
when u no frenz then only u will tink of me.
when u got frenz, dun even care abt me...
so wat if i noe u for quite long?
i'm a human too.
i've feelings.
it's not like i've no feelings then i heck care.
i will feel disappointed and depressed.
i hate it.
i hate u.
why muz u tangled my heart????!!!
i wish u can disappear! go away! just dun bother me.
since u've such weird and stupid attitude.
ur parents muz have taught u crap.
useless slut.
coward.
when u not shuang u blame on other ppl.
i didn't even allow u to take my pencil and u took it urself.
dun even have respect...
so wat rights do u have to tell ppl how to respect?!
NO, U have NO RIGHTs.
i hate u!!!!
just stop ur stupid behaviours,
dun mess with me when i'm in a bad mood.
and esp sick. -.-

2010-03-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

so depressed and desperate...
her attitude, her comments,
her stupid face!
and her act cute voice and mouth!
really disgusting.
joking with her, she took it so seriously.
when she bully ppl and anyhow push me,
CAN LA?!!!!
HUH?! can la??????!!!!!!!!
so angry with her.
KNS BITCH!
i wish she can really shut up.
become dumb or wat better. -.-
dun come mess with me when i dun feel like smiling.
and dun show me tat stupid attitude of yours.
it's so freaking eww.
and ur act cute voice,
when i heard it,
i'm going deaf.
when u haf a little achievement u become so proud.
shameless!!
u think u so super arh?!
everytime correct me tis and tat and i know u 看不顺眼 then like tat de lor
like the ^^^^^ #####,
u can't even do,
then juz shut up la!
dumbo!
slut! slut slut slut!
dun come find me when u haf not many frenz left.
coz of ur violence, and stupid attitude,
tat's why ppl can't stand it.
i dunno how to --- and i asked u to teach me
yet u ignore me.
then when teacher asked who did it,
and say it's not up to standard,
she said my bad words.
it's not me who --- it
and u're talking crap.
btw, u juz can't shut up,
everyday talk crap.
i hate to sit near u.
freaking girl...
it's not me who did it,
yet u juz think is me then tell teacher,
so "NICE" of u la!
KNS BITCH
better get out of my sight.
only u're right.
i'm always wrong.
fine, i'm wrong, only then u will satisfied.
evil woman.
not tat i wanna say more abt u,
but i can't stand u any longer.
i've been a long time since i scold ppl on my blog.
i can't tolerate anymore
so i've resorted to this solution.
pls just take it as i've no other ways to let out my anger.
sometimes i really feel like crying loudly.
maybe i will feel better.
i can't even cry in front of other ppl.
i feel tat i'm just so useless.
i'm quite a failure.
I GIVE UP.
actually i should have given up long ago.
i can't change anything.
CONTINUE ur everything.
u ignore me i will juz ignore u
dun care how long i know u.
stupid idiot, stop reading respect my privacy.

2010-02-24T21:26:00.004+08:00

hey hello,
damn tired today...
sweat a lot during CCA.
maths do halfway,
eng haven't do.
i always think tat sec eng is so lame.
today got summary test,
then anyhow do lor.
i planned to go buy E awards tickets tmr.
i hate to go sch, i hate to go home.
where should i go??
time is not enough,
now i wanna go back to sch holidays.
i really wanna give up.
maybe give up everything will make me feel better,
i don't know la.
1 wk only 1 day get to rest.
sometimes hwk dun even allow me to rest.
i miss xiu hui.
i miss the times we spent together,
playing basketball...
haiz now everything had changed.
my life ended in misery.
so tired.
i have no right to say anything.
take natural course bah
whatever happened i can't control.
since i can't control,
i shall not waste my time dwelling over it.
i read from the newspapers tat gossip is a kind of way
that will relieve stress too.
lols, u believe?
i dun like to be forced.
forcing me will only make things worse.
i can't take tat pressure.
k, going to do hwk le.
-bb-

不喜歡懷疑什麼　並不表示我沒有感受
看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同
我不是生氣　　只是心痛
最討厭被誤會了　但越解釋越覺得難過
你可以説人會變　但不能説　你會這麼做是我的錯
哭過就好了　傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨
愛是為了擁抱　　為了牽手
不是為了爭吵　　為了調頭
哭過就好了　　痛都會走的
記憶有限　　　所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌　　　想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了越多美好堆疊的過往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷
要找勇氣卻不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某個地方

2010-02-23T21:42:00.003+08:00

hey time pass so fast when i'm at home,
but during my CCA, time pass damn slow~
haiz tmr still got CCA AGAIN. D:
damn tired.
not enough time to sleep,
not enough time to do hwk.
going crazy.
today sci lesson mix the chemicals...
wat copper sulfate or wat and the dunno wat hydrochloric acid or sth...
mix and mix.
quite fun lurh.
then after doing the experiment,
wash the test tubes bla bla
kah long, lucinda, zhafran and others playing with the chemicals
and mixtures lor. cause a lot of reaction. lols
and ms tow didn't see it.
then we copied the silly table of observations,
lame.
and the boys were playing with the distilled water!
spray at each other...
all i could say is CHILDISH.
then ms tow in the end said sth like
today i very happy or wat
then say we did our work very well.
LOLS.
and when i'm copying the table of observations
with kuan yi and yang ming,
then i said "哪里有这样的"
and ms tow heard it bah
and she came over to me then
suddenly her upper body touched me LOL!
and i was so startled.
wth is wrong with her?? -.-
then she spoke a little hokkien to me
and i replied a little hokkien to her?
LOLs.
then when she want to go away,
she asked me dun haf teachers being so warm hearted to me meh
and i said exactly.
LOLs i was laughing like siao tat time.
then she suddenly sort of spike me at my back,but not very pain la.
just a gentle one.
lols this is the first time i had such close contact with a teacher
WEIRD.
and today eng teacher ms liauw didn't come!!!
:D
she didn't come, i more than happy la.
tat teacher with no colourful world.
only grey and black -.-
haiz hopeless.

and today maths olympiad de teacher so ah gua.
helen still kept taking his photos.
DAMN FUNNY.
and jian xing, he dun even haf any respect for the teacher.
he walked here and there to take props from ideal boutique!
and wore fake hairs and weird hats on his head.
siao la.
ok bye bye la.
my idiot mum is nagging now. KNS.
everyday haf to face CRAZY and UNREASONABLE and BAD TEMPERED
ppl in my hse. HATE THEM TO THE CORE.
i hate to go sch, i hate to go home.
i have nowhere to go. so in the end,
i ending up at home AGAIN.
facing weirdos AGAIN.
i'm so desperate.

BYE BYE. D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

2010-02-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

so tired now,
i hope all my worries, hwk and projects
will disappear right now
and the next day is back to december holidays again
wah tat kinda feeling muz be superb! (:
but i'm DREAMING.
ytd saw a shuai ge~ at my mum's friend's hse.
he damn shuai la...
but his younger bro is like a fat pig or sth.
lols!
i'm saying the truth.
but the age gap, the shuai ge alrdy poly le.
so sad lurh.
haiz

today got CCA,
i hate it as usual...
damn tired lor
today's eng lesson was quite funny
the kah long said abt the durex!
LOLS
perv la
i got a cousin who looks like him.
size is abt him,
eyes also small,
then hair quite similiar.
lols
but i believe tat my cousin is more shuai than kah long
got one time across the road
then my cousin standing there fa dai.
and when i saw him,
i tot is kah long
then i'm thinking why kah long is at upper serangoon?!
hahas! close up look, my cousin. chey.
hwk still haven't do! OH GOSH.
my audi couple is quite annoying la.
everyday sms me dunno how many times
siao lor.
as if i care.
somemore his sms are so lame
like wat u doin now?
u busy arh?
gd night and muacks.
then i replied him haf sweet dreams,
he replied me why no kiss.
SIAO LA
i noe him very well meh?!
and my audi didi everyday sick la,
still play audi until 12+am
very pro la~
then also everyday sms me say
Jie, i now sick, sore throat and cough leh,
nobody bring me to doctor...
oh pls lor,
real life he got 3 sis!
i'm just a stranger jie to him
anyway,
i still got an idiotic bro at home
everyday use comp...
his face alrdy so sickening le.

Monday very funny,
i went my ah ma hse
then my cousin also there.
and she brought her boyfriend along
his boyfriend kns la,
looks kns, size also kns.
i wonder why she likes tat bf lor
and when ppl come, he didn't even greet ppl.
and when my mum giving out ang bao,
she asks who she missed out
then my cousin's bf was like... trying to stretch out his hands
to receive ang bao from my mum
just then, my mum walked away and never give him! LOL!
nice one. and his face is so embarrassed! hahahahahas!
ok i'm juz being a little bad la
but we also dun noe him well ma.

so long didn't update le. so now type longer post. (:
and btw, rmb to go http://sgeawards.omy.sg to vote for
XIAO ZHU LUO ZHI XIANG!!!!! :D
support him!! :)
ok bye bye liao

so pissed off by their attitude!
i'm juz being extra there la
nobody will see my efforts.
i'm kns there.
fin,e continue. u won't respect me,
i dun care abt u too.
stupid BITCHes.
and who's reading tis?
死 KPO la! get lost

2010-02-10T15:02:00.002+08:00

hello,
back at home (:
and nobody is at home now!! :D
so using the com now.
damn it, my ear piece for hp is spoiled! :(
only got the speakers... -.-
and i lost my specs!! D:
now i see whiteboard also so blur,
see comp even blur.
now then i miss my specs
i haven't tell my parents abt it!
and my mum and dad will surely scold me de la
wat to do?????????
this is the first post in feb.
i want go to the E awards party at marina float on 13 march!!
hope tat yang ming can go too!
gonna go sistic to buy tickets.
got SHINee and JJ! :D
not sure if got xiao zhu leh hope got la.
and pls vote for xiao zhu! :)
http://sgeawards.omy.sg
faster go vote hor!
i want him to come singapore!!~ :D
btw, today in class really wanna sleep le...
eyes going to close, esp during sci lesson sia
tat ms tow talk and talk non stop
in the end i only understand halfway lurh
lit was lame. -.-
monut go sabo me!
stupid monut...
i now voting for xiao zhu~
<3 die him la! :D
ok bye bye

2010-01-31T21:46:00.002+08:00

I read this book for the whole afternoon
and i think i spent 3hrs to read 200+ pages of this book.
eyes super tired sia!
even when i wear specs,
my version is still blur...
now then recover to normal le.
this book is quite interesting,
just tat the gd phrases got a lot
then a bit long-winded,
100+ then come to the main point.
it's abt Elly has a crush.
She liked Carl for as long as she can remember.
When he starts dating the new girl at sch,
she thinks it'll just be another short-lived fling.
It's not.And now Elly has to take matters into her own hands.
then got many parts have pervertic descriptions.
it's quite... eww.
1. She reached out and took the bottle, unscrewing the top.
she took a gulp and felt the bubbles on her throat.
Behind the sweetness of the lemonade was something else, harder,hotter.
She took a second gulp and then handed it back to Jason. He didn't drink it;
he just put the bottle down and leaned across her, his fingers playing
with the zip of her jacket.
"You could undo this. It's warm enough," he said, his voice husky.
"Andy's prison is in Essex," she said, pulling the zip down until her jacket fell open.
"Essex," he said, looking down at her chest.
A second later he was kissing her, his lips just touching hers,tentative,nervous.
she held back for a moment but then felt herslef responding,
closing her eyes, pulling at his arms to draw him closer.
After some long kisses his hand fluttered across her breast
and his mouth dropped down to her neck
and brushed against her skin.
She let herself sink back into the seat.
Opening her eyes she saw that interior of the car was dusky,
almost like night-time. It made her feel sleepy.
A noise startled her. Three sharp taps on the glass.
She sat quickly and pulled her clothes together.
She moved a few centimetres away from Jason
as if to distance herself from him.
There, at the window was the round,boyish face of Todd Bell.
He was grinning in a disgusting way.
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alright, dun u feel disgusting??? i almost puke.
i hate the parts which got these pervertic stuff lurh.
and still got one more. i've picked out 2 interesting ones to talk abt.
2.He finally kissed her on the day of her sixteenth birthday.
He'd turned up at her front door about nine in the evening with a present, a DVD.
Her mum was at work and she asked him if he wanted to come up to her room
and see her new stereo. He followed her up the stairs.
Once in her room she closed the door. Her bedside light was on and the room
had a pink glow. The tiny stereo her mum had bought her was on her chest of
drawers and she was about to point it out when Carl handed her the DVD.
He'd wrapped it in glittery paper and on one corner was a ribbon bow.
He shrugged in an embarrassment way and she said,
i wonder what this could be? It was the first time he'd
ever gone to such trouble. She pulled the paper off and saw that it
was one of his favourite movies. It's a classic, he said.
She went on tiptoes and kissed him on the cheek. As she moved away he
bent down and kissed her other cheek. She stayed still,
holding her breath, wondering what to do next.
He began kissing her on the mouth.
Her neck was bent back and she was on tiptoes. He kept going for what seemed
like ages; then they both stumbled towards
the bed. In moments they were half sitting,half lying,sinking
into each other, Carl kissing her softly and then
with more force. He only stopped at the sound of the front
door banging. "Elly,you there?We're back."
It was her mum and her gran.
Later, when he'd gone home, she went back up to her room and saw
that the covers on her bed were messed up.
The sight of it excited her,made her feel jittery. At last.
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OMG it's just so grossed la.
i had goose bumps after reading those parts.
DISGUSTING, GROSSED.
all imagined in the head LOL!
first time writing book review in blog hahas!
those 2 tat i mentioned are the more gross ones.
got more but not so disgusting tat will make me lose my appetite.
the total pages in tat bk is 276! -.-
read until my head spinning.
But some parts are nice and exciting.
ppl who are jealous will do anything tat is not normal...
now haven't read finish lurh.
juz tat i read until pag 220+ bah
still haf abt 50 more pages to go.
still haf 2 books haven't read wor.
haiz no time ma
====================================================
hate my brother la! i just told him to go away
then he go kicked my hip!
omg he's a violent kid.
hate him! crazy fellow lor.
go MH la! die liao better!
all the bad words come out of his mouth!
hate it.
he still scolded me the F word everytime!
so frustrated lor.
anyway, tmr 2.4km... ):
haiz sian la.
found out tat Yu Song is actually sihui's cousin...
then he said may chua and helen are so chio!
he said helen's hairstyle is stylish! LOL!
and just now facebk saw fang shun's photo.
DAMN FUNNY. look at the background.
then his relationship status is also damn funny de!
Relationship Status: widowed!
HAHAHAHAS!
can't stop laughing la.
haiz tmr is monday AGAIN!
weekends are so short! i want longer weekends pls!
hwk haven't do finish lor.
tmr still got CCA!
going to die liao la!
so STRESSed,
will be getting my 2 masks tmr! hahas.
ordered from zhi ling's friend.
one can relieve stress de, wonder if it really works.
wah today post so long.
all coz of tat disgusting parts HAHA
enjoy lor. dun puke.
k, tat's all for today! (:
BYE BYE

2010-01-30T23:02:00.002+08:00

went to watch the Tooth Fairy last Thursday
and it was damn nice and FUNNY lurh
i kept laughing during tat movie.
watched until 6.30pm
but tat's the day i lost my wallet. ):
so desperate when i can't find my wallet.
then searched at causeway point until 9.15pm
then go home,
alrdy 9.45pm... D:
sad sad sad.
now my ez-link card's gone too.
plurking juz now.
karma increased so little everyday sian la.
cough and flu haven't recover.
flu much better le
but cough is like worse,
and hwk haven't do finish!
dun feel like doing.
weekends are for RESTING
not doing hwk.
so wat's the point of weekends?!
MOE is so dumb, dun u tink?????
weekends so fast over de, sad la.
hate to go sch.
go sch torture myself.
haiz.
tmr maybe nid go out coz nid to buy CNY clothes.
later my mum angry again.
siao za bo la.
every night she will nag non stop.
go on.
nag all she wants
they're all crap to me.
alrdy very stressed and tired after CCA and sch,
she still nags!
nth better to do izzit?!
playing audi, so bored.
play with noobs, too bored
play wif pros, too challenging
hui xin still haven't repair her comp!
sianzzz
ok BYE BYE la

2010-01-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

damn sad recently.
sec sch sux la.
everyday got diff probs.
now i'm going crazy.
my mum's driving me crazy,
my sch's driving me crazy!!!!
ytd lost my wallet. ):
inside got popular card, GOLD timezone card D: and ez link card.
still got $6 inside...
then tat wallet cost me $10+...
ez link card got $8!
AHHHHHH!
i'm going crazy!!!
i can't believe it,
the wallet had been wif me for years and
now it's lost.
DAMN DAMN SAD.
heart broken leh
my wallet~ D:
now still have to settle the problems!
having a breakdown soon.
Sch is so stressed.
stress stress stress...
i dun even have much time to stay at home
ytd searched my wallet until 9.45pm.
then when learn ting xie,
gonna fall asleep.

2010-01-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

hey hello...
TIRED
TIRED
TIRED
1 wk 3 times CCA.
so better dun come and make me angry
or u will get it.
SO FRUSTRATED by many ppl's attitude.
hate ppl who only noe how to make use of me
TOLERATING
hate ppl who treat me like invisible
hate ppl who are ill-mannered and selfish
care for themselves only...
TOLERATING
still haf to see a group of bitches...
going crazy soon!!!!!
chatting with xiu hui on msn now,
really miss her...
really miss the times when we're together,
at least she treats me wholeheartedly.
at least i won't feel stressed when i'm with her
at least she dun irritate me.
HAIZ.
the first wk in AISS is my worst schooldays ever!!
all was like NIGHTMARES
mrs chew, then followed by "POTASSIUM" incident,
then followed by my seat bla bla and no frenz...
KANASAI la.
miss the times when xiu hui and i played basketball wif a group of silly China boys.
was damn funny then.
and now all disappeared.
at home,
all the ppl are like enemies.
no peace at all.
i want go back pri sch!
i dun want to stay in AISS even for one more min.
tat place sucks totally.
tat place is hell to me.
i dun find it fun at all.
filled wf hwk and still hwk.
breathless liao.
teachers' pressure.
everything was changing to the worst
today still haf CCA.
hwk haven't do finish.
teachers in AISS sucks even more.
wants to puke when see them
all nightmares lurh
NIGHTMARES NIGHTMARES...
ok finish complaining bye bye.
=(

2010-01-23T12:11:00.002+08:00

hey hello people!
didn't tag my blog arh?!
so dead. -.-
cbox dead,
blog also dead
so now, here i am keeping this blog alive? haha
ytd a teacher came to find a few of my classmates and me
then is abt maths olypiad.
then kuan yi and i are joining. (:
every tue got course la.
now so stress and tired.
10 feb still got maths trail!
haiz...
i hope all those got CCA pts. (:
plurking just now.
last night played audi until quite late,
tis morning woke up at 9.30am
done the grammar in context.
geography, i left my textbook under the table
so didn't do much,
tuition hwk, going to do finish le.
tmr still got maths tuition...
seeing the funny teacher again.
he is childish sometimes lol
the way he talks,
is so FUNNY!
then hui ling and i everytime laughed.
and i try to suspress my laugh but ended up my
shoulders are shaking! LOL!
so sian lurh,
i want holidays!
sometimes want go watch movie during weekdays
also no time... ):
watching movies with my family is LONG TIME AGO do de.
now WE ALL no time go watch movie
i want watch 跳出去!!
looks nice.
tonight going my ah ma's house in yishun.

i miss my pri sch frenz so much lor.
yet most of them didn't keep in contact with me!
so guo fen hor.
i miss my pri sch uniform somehow.
no nid fold skirt,
just a pi-ner-form*
then just 套下去 can liao...
so not waste time.

ok, going to play audi le la,
TEO HUI XIN, faster repair ur comp!
then play audi with me.
so bored to play with strangers.

and people who visited my blog, pls pls tag b4 u go!
tyvm.
so TAG NOW!!!!!
bye bye.

2010-01-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

sad sad sad
i noe i'm hopeless,
my family is hopeless too.
mood-less
cure-less
hope-less
haiz...haiz...haiz...
lame me.
silly me.
hate hate hate
all over the place.
why can't i haf PEACE?? ):
i dun want to stir trouble,
still haf to settle it.
i'm so stress.
dun think i not stress,
i got a lot of pressure
damn tired everyday,
feeling like numbing myself.
hate to go sch
hate to do hwk
hate to go home
but i can only force myself to do those things
wat else can i do?
i haf no rights to do anything
they're all beyond my control.
facing weird ppl in sch
making me so frustrated,
i hope i can numb my feelings.
dun even haf any support from my parents,
days are getting worse each day,
having to tolerate,
is the worst thing.
AHHHHHH!~
DAMN STRESS
i wish i can don't care abt anything
but i just can't
forcing myself to do the things i hate,
HORRIBLE.
going crazy soon.

2010-01-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

hey hi,
damn tired now.
really want to close my eyes and sleep!
ppl living in yishun,
i live in sembawang, still nearer to admiralty!
omg,
u all tired i not tired meh...
dun think i always play com,
actually i played audi to let out my stress,
although it's not much use la.
i'm really stressed.
my parents expect me to get really gd results.
if not, they'll nag all day and force me to do tis & tat. -.-
everyday board the 859 bus to sch
really damn damn tired,
still haf to face weird ppl staring at u,
dun u think it's really weird and uncomfortable??
then afternoon reached home earliest also nid 3+ pm.
so now is i more pathetic and tired or others?
i really want sleep but when i feel stress,
i can't sleep!
the next day,
another hell day again. -.-
like a cycle.
hate to wake up in the early morning.
and i really feel like snoozing the alarm!
yet i can't.
it's so miserable.
then haf to wake up very early,
or else i will nid to run to the bus stop again.
IT"S TIRING & i'm very sick of it.
when i board the bus,
everyone's looking at me.
duh... wth are they looking? i'm a monster izzit?
my surroundings are all pressure.
i dun even noe wat i can do.
omg!!!!!
my mum's scolding me again.
I haven't seen her smile for months.
she's always unhappy with me when i did nth wrong,
I HATE MY HOME, FAMILY.
they dun even noe wat's going on.
few days ago,
she bought dinner.
then got the curry chicken,
i dunno told her how many times le,
I DUN WANT THE CURRY CHICKEN FROM TAT STALL!
and she dun even care.
everything follows her decision.
wat abt me? she didn't even care abt me... :(
she didn't even noe wat i dun want eat!
I'm tolerating everyday
and i'm giving in to her in watever things!
yet she dun even care!
she tired when working,
i not tired when studying arh!
hate her la!!
she only care abt her feelings,
then wat abt mine?!
scold scold scold,
very song la,
but me? she dun even noe why i want use the com
everyday scold and nag.
can't she just stop?!
i haf enough!
i haf no peace at all.
sometimes i wish i can go home later!
I hate to face her!
she's like a witch to me!
SHUT UP!
i really can't smile at home now.
NO MOOD AT ALL. ):

2010-01-15T20:35:00.002+08:00

hey hello...
this morning didn't eat breakfast
then went sch
and so suay, today ran 2.4km
then after running,
i feel like vomiting, felt super giddy
even LZL said i walked in the shape of "8"
then after i finish running i got a loud vomit sound
and sonia heard it then kept asking me if i'm ok.
lols
and when went back to class,
i can't stand it.
i got a headache.
then feeling giddy.
i felt better after some time, not very giddy le
but headache
then LZL and lucinda go tell teacher.
jian xing,helen and jia ying was fanning me
and after a while the teacher insist tat i go general office.
then the staff there offered me biscuits
and helen and the others go buy milo for me.
thx a lot.
then zhi ling was not happy with sth, LOL
better not say lurh.haha
and i'm so glad tat there are so many ppl
so concern abt me LOLS!
SPECIAL THANKS TO all the ppl who helped me today!! :D
I'm so HAPPY!! :D

then after sch got CCA open house.
it's damn freaking fun lor
shout and shout.
it's a way of letting out stress LOL
but now i'm drinking honey -.-
then saw kah long at the SJAB there,
nauwfhal at the NCC land there.
and hui ling, jia ying and me are trying to shake off her!
she kept following us!
so annoying lor!
then we went toilet and hide and she wait outside!!
then the only way is to run separate ways and meet up in the end.
so hui ling, me and jia ying ran different routes then met
at the toilet together,
luckily this time we managed to shake her off.
idiotic la.
so shameless lor!
and i find her legs DAMN smelly!!!!!! :(
then kept appearing behind us like a female ghost!
makes me puke.
and jiaying even wore the wrong shoes when want to go home!! OMG
so suay sia.
anyway, good byes.
damn tired today.
FAINT~

2010-01-13T21:46:00.003+08:00

hey hello.
damn tired these few days.
eyes feel like closing during lessons.
too tired.
lack of sleep. -.-
and now my nose feels weird...
now i 1 wk got 3 times CCA!
omg gonna stressed out.
i'm so stress now.
i feel more stress than last yr.
i can't concentrate,
i can't think properly.
i always get distracted
haiz.
audi haven't go lv up.
linked sihui and relinked hazel just now liao
gonna go plurk after posting.
facebook... seems boring to me these few days
nth much to do.
and do finish maths le.
do finish HMT hwk.
and geography,
the ms dianah was like a mad woman scolding at my class
during Geo.
crazy woman...
then mind map her expectations so lame.
and although i find ms liauw's eng lessons
fun sometimes,
but it's also lame at the same time
i somehow thinks tat she's treating us like pri sch kids
i still like HMT better,
it's more funny.
and i won't feel so pressured during mrs zhao's lessons
compared to mdm chong.
mdm chong will ask a lot of qns and tell us jot this and tat
but mrs zhao didn't tell us to write a lot.
and her ting xie is like so EASY.
no sentences. (:
mr rama go cut his hair le LOL
but his size didn't change.
i prefer mr yong to mr rama la.
at least mr yong's lessons i still can sleep.
i very tired leh
i scared i'll fall sick not long after.
ok ending here le.
bye
and btw, PLS TAG! my cbox is quite dead le

2010-01-09T20:57:00.003+08:00

hey hello.
so stressed now,
hate my teachers.
they all are weird and unreasonable.
they're really LAME.
the ms ang my finger nails so short liao
she still have to close up check!
siao la.
last time mr yong
also didn't like tat
even if my finger nails are LONGGGG,
he will tell me to go cut.
then also didn't close up check.
and the ms dianah
omg she's like a witch
malay witch lurh.
hate her most.
she sucks.
she come into the class and check the cleaniness
she might as well be the
cleaner supervisor!
she said crap and she's so unreasonable.
I hate her.
then the chinese teacher, Ms Zhao,
actually she's still ok.
the ms liauw*
i somehow feel tat she's treating us like pri sch kids
do name tags,
but sometimes her lesson is FUN.
and history is ms ong...
she's strict abt fringe and ms ang is strict abt finger nails.
luckily there's no 2 form teachers in my class
or else my fringe will...OMG
ok ending here liao
recently so busy sia.

2010-01-02T20:33:00.002+08:00

I bought the 我爱大明星的书 at Tampines Mall today!! :-D
inside still got a VCD. :)
really like it very much
i searched many places le
but only tampines mall got.
at first when i saw the price tag it's $18.08
but when scanned, it's only $7.40 lor
i finally bought it!!!!!!!!!!!!

went to Bugis Street, iluma and tampines mall today.
went to Bugis street with hui xin coz she wants to buy the vest.
and she brought $70 wor!
i only brought $12! LoLs
then went to comics connection to buy the 2r sized cards
but dun haf show luo's!!!!
only causeway point got lurh.
now i bought 8 jolin's, 1 jay chou's and 1 wu chun's.
at the iluma shopping centre there la.
then after shopped at Bugis,
boarded the MRT to Tampines.
nid abt 25 min.
then went to tampines mall.
tat place is full of ppl lor
even the queue in popular is LONGGGG.
then tat place is huge too.
love tampines mall.
then went home at 5pm.
reached home at 6.45pm...
nearly 2 hrs.
forgot to return my bks to the library today...
nvm the due date is 16 Jan.
15 Jan got 罗生门!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!! :)
today i won't post too long coz no time.
i haf to play audi later.
license pass can get free A-cash items.
and now the audi license super easy la!
nid only perfects not over 10 then combo x2 and score also
very easy to pass lor!
the song is long and within half of the song,
i passed. audi license is so easy now. hahas
BYEEEE

2010-01-01T20:18:00.002+08:00

oh well, happy new year.
just now a group of crazy ppl came to my hse.
and they're my grandparents(mother side de), and my third aunt.
all crazy ppl.
they're so 讨人厌!
i hate them
whenever they ask my mum to go out,
also bring my bro and me,
i said i dun want.
my bro also said the same thing
and they will say our bad words to my mum
and my mum she will only listen to them.
stupid.
my third aunt will start to poison my mum's mind,
and i hate it.
then she will use silly stuff to bribe my bro and me go out.
of coz i dun want.
i hate ppl who bribe others to acheive wat they want
it's like so dispicable la.
and i had long ago gave up on those crazy ppl.
even my uncle disappoints me.
tat whole family somehow only listen to my third aunt
juz tat she's more experienced or wat?
she's a single
and my mother side de family only 2 couples.
no i meant 3.
1) my gong gong po po
2) my eldest uncle and her Thai wife.
3) my mum and my dad
and there are my first aunt, third aunt, xiao yi and my uncle in tat family.
and only my mum and my eldest uncle got married.
then ONLY MY MUM had children.
so i'm dun haf any cousins on my mother side.
so sad.
then because of the fact tat my third aunt is still a single,
she kept looking for my mum.
i'm not saying they should not contact,
just tat if she wants go out wif my mum
it's ok.
but dun drag my bro and i into the situation
and she caused my family to quarrel until...
i hate her mouth la!
then whenever i say i dun want go out,
my mum will say because i want stay home use comp,
watch tv de.
but tat's not true lor
i dun want to go out coz of those group of crazy ppl!
they aren't even automatic!
everytime they say want go out but
always go to the places i dun like!
i'm not interested de places...
then they'll come my hse once in a while and
say nonsense.
tell my dad to do sth to us to stop us from tis or tat
then my dad brought my bro's TV out of his room
and set a stupid timer to the comp.
and tat's why last sunday
my whole family became enemies.
then my bro was talking back to my dad.
haiz whenever i talked abt it
i feel so sad lurh.
if not for tat stupid mouth of hers,
things won't turn out this way.
i hate her,
then last sunday my bro didn't go out wif them,
only i go out.
and they're like so disappointed.
i can see from my grandma's face.
i hate them
i noe they dote on my bro more.
but can they at least dun show me tat face!
i hate them!!!
it's a torture to go out wif them.
just now still come my hse and talked crap.
today is the first day of 2010...
OMG my hwk still haven't do finish.
2 more days to sch.
hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm broke too.
i had to save money really hard...
haiz. dun wan go back CCA...
dun want face silly ppl.
dun want face the unreasonable teachers in my sch.
i'll go crazy one day.
the day still has to come but
i kept comforting myself tat still got time.
silly me.

2009-12-31T22:14:00.003+08:00

hey went to watch 刺陵 today!!!!!!
JAY CHOU and Chiling Lin!
omg love them both la.
but love jay chou more.
wah the movie was a little funny
coz got the crazy guy who looks like humpty dumpty de.
HAHA!
he kept saying YOU NO GOOD, YOU NO GD!
LOLs.
and he's so funny lurh
but i dun like the ending coz
the "Qiao Fei"(jay) didn't be with the "Lan Ting"(chiling lin)
in the end. :-(
he said they're from different worlds.
wat rubbish la.
i hate this lame reason.
i went to causeway point at 11.30am
then 12.20pm then go queued.
and today dun haf student price then i thought got...
and at first i still ordered popcorn sia.
and when the person told me is $23+,
i was so terrified.
then in the end i dun wan the popcorn le.
the queue today in the morning is not long at all.
very fast then my turn le. (:
and luckily this time is not the same girl who served me
when i go watch alvin and the chipmunks 2.
HAHAS.
but the movie theatre only got a few ppl leh!
then was freezing cold...
we got the middle seats! G9 and 10...
and in front of us
got 2 girls and behind us got a group of teenagers.
i still heard one of them say "oi faster wake up liao"
HAHAHAS!!!!
then watched the 1.05pm de show.
watch till 3pm like tat.
the movie was amazing la.
just tat i hope the main leads are together in the end leh. ^^
today will be the last day of 2009.
this yr, i wasn't very happy.
2nd day of sch totally sucks.
and i might be the most popular girl who got scolded everytime
on the 2nd day of sch la. :(
i even got lost when finding the kitchen for home economics!
how pathetic.
tat day was also the first time i experienced such 场面...
i won't forget tat day
and i won't forget tat teacher who always makes my heart
thump so fast whenever have her lessons.
and tmr will be 2010.
and i feared tmr too.
i feared next Mon too.
i dun want school to start!
damn moody now.
the thought of sch holidays are going to end soon,
i dun even haf any mood to play audi le.
i hate the teachers in my sch.
they sucks.
totally sucks.
they were really nightmares
last time in pri sch
i hate to wake up early at 6.30am
then go CCA very sian de.
and now, on the days of sch,
i haf to wake up at 5.30am
and i haf to force myself to wake up.
then on the days which I haf CCA,
i dun even want to wake up!
i might as well be dead then going to sch
i hate schools since pri 1.
schools are total nightmares to me!
oh gosh.
next mon...
i'll wait and see.
bye.

2009-12-28T21:40:00.002+08:00

take a look at this shameless fucking bitch. pls enlarge to see more clearly.
she cut my queue when I'm buying movie tickets,
her face is so FAT lor and her butt is so BIG
HATE HER, FEEL LIKE SLAPPING HER LA.
fatty old hag.
better dun let me see her ever again
or i will scratch her face until she disfigure with my finger nails!!
i curse her roll down when finding the seats
in the movie theatre,
or choked to death when eating popcorn.
fucking old auntie.
face so fat still eat popcorn!
dun even want to slim down
later when she old
will get a lot of disease.
then still cut queue.
dun she feel guilty and ashame?!
izzit fair for the ppl queuing long ago?!
so selfish!!
i despise her la.
lao auntie!
活该长得这么丑！
祝她快点死掉！

2009-12-28T20:33:00.003+08:00

heys
I'm damn angry and sad ytd and today
I really want to leave my home.
all the crazy ppl are living inside!
last night cried. :(
all coz of those silly and unreasonable babarians
in my hse.
i hate them all.
i dun trust my family anymore
whenever they made me happy,
they'll made me sad again.
they're like smashing my heart again and again
I'm tired.
and my heart dunno had been smashed
for how many times.
ytd was a really scary day for me.
in the afternoon my third aunt called
and asked my mum want go where...
STUPID BITCH!
hate tat aunt i tell u.
she's such a samba!
she makes me so hate her.
she always poison my mum's mind
then said a lot of nonsense.
i really want her to shut her smelly mouth!
then my mum only listen to her. -.- STUPID.
i can't stand my whole family.
a group of crazy fellows!
i didn't do anything worng they also scold!
SIAO LA!
i hate to go home now.
whenever i reached home,
i really feel like crying.
this home is so SCARY.
my bro is hopeless
then always play com,
watch tv. useless bum.
and ytd he said he dun want go out then
made my mum think tat he want to
watch tv and play com
but he only watch tv.
my bro won't play com at night.
then my mum scold until so
ANGRY. and nag non stop
tat made my dad angry too
so when we came back from the chinatown
he go take my bro's tv out of his room
then my bro so angry lurh
and he flare up
then my mum scold again!!
my dad even more angry
so he go do sth to the com again.
i really can't stand these ppl!
I HATE THEM ALL.
i dun want go home.
i hate to go home.
going home is nth but trouble
same goes to sch.
and my dad ytd even go take the clothes hanger
to beat my bro!
omg, tat will only worsen the situation.
then i try to help my bro by telling my mum
to stop nagging
and she turned out scolding me too!
wtf.
wat did i do?!
then my dad still angry
and he set the timer to the com
now i can only use com at 8.10pm!
I HATE MY WHOLE FAMILY!
THEY ARE SO SCARY
THEY ARE SO UNREASONABLE
I HATE TO GO HOME
I HATE TO GO SCH
ALL ARE NTH BUT TROUBLE
then last night my bro go take pillows
to throw at the door and
my dad tot he's kicking at the door.
so he went into my bro's room to scold him again
and my whole family turned into enemies
in one night.
I'm so helpless and i dunno wat to do to
save tat situation!
i really dunno wat to do
there's only bangs and scoldings in my hse last night.
i dislike going home.
one word: SCARY
everyday my parents after work
there will be no PEACE in my hse.
where had my happy memories of family goes??
i dunno.
there's nth to be happy anymore.
i cried until my eyes are a little swollen.
and i dun want to let my parents see tat
I'm crying.
i dun even dare to let out a sound!
ytd was really a day with unhappy memories.
how i wish all these can stop.
I'm so miserable now.
I just feel like crying whenever i reached home.

went to watch the Alvin&the chipmunks 2 today.
FANTASTIC.
and i bought 3 luo zhi xiang's 2R sized cards!
FABULOUS.
but i didn't see the 10 cards for $3
then 1 card for $0.80!
omg. I'm so dumb.
then i spent $2.40 on 3 cards!
I'm looking forward to xiao zhu's
罗生門！
i gonna buy it!
and i'm so angry today lurh
a stupid auntie go cut queue my queue
when buying tickets for the movie!
and LZL kept squeezing with her lol
then tat auntie kept using her big buttock
to push me behind!
siao za bo lor!
and in the end we didn't succeed in getting our place back,
of coz.
and i was scolding behind her.
I said 死三八！我太瞧不起这种人了...
then kept scolding her nasty things.
and she's like no 反应
she's guilty to talk back ma.
this is the first time i saw someone
cut my queue lor!
fucking bitch!
such a bad example to her children!
if i saw this kind of person again,
i will really tell her she 插队
i really hate tat auntie.
she's really shameless.
nvm, i got her photos taken! :)
post on blog!
still have to post on facebook!
still haf to post on my plurk! hahahahaha
she's a fat shameless slut.
hope she will roll down when she's finding her seats
in the dark cinema theatre.
fucking old bitch.
死八婆！

2009-12-26T20:12:00.005+08:00

oh~ HELLO~
nearly forgot to reply tags!!!
long time no reply tags.
really long time liao
so now i shall reply.
firstly, thanks to all those who tagged.
(to make the post shorter, haha)
secondly,
I'm going to reply to other ppl who didn't tag,
but got say sth at my tagbox.
start from the latest.
>ZhiLing: heys ah neo... LOL! ah low. LOL!
ok la, go tag ur blog.
>Jiayi: oh hi. merry christmas too.
>YunXuan :] : oh hello. thx for ur compliment.
>C.razes/.♥: oh hiie. :]
>Zhi Ling: ok is POOR YOU. forget abt it la,
u also can't get back ur $0.50
>Zhi Ling: so HAHAHA!
>Sujing: heys hello~ :]
>SERENE :D : yea i should haf taken ur no.
no, should be we should haf exchange no. (:
>SERENE :D : oh glad tat u found my blog.
nvm. maybe the place got other noises.
>qingxi: OH ty for ur compliment uh. :D
>qingxi: yea. :)
>ZhiLing: yeah, I'm so happy to be XIAO ZHU LUO ZHI XIANG'S
MANIAC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
HAHAHAHAHAHA
>qingxi: ya, i like wu chun's NOSE! so damn nice looking wor. =D
7pm show the Cruel Temptation is NICE :D
>F A N G L I N G: u're RELINKED! ;D
>Valerie: hey, surprised to see u here. (:
ya! his name is angsari. LOL!
then we called him angsana!!!!!!! LOL!
>qingxi: LOLs but angsana not his real name?
>[B]elleee: yea mr angsana! LOLs!
>hui mei senior: I will MISS U TOO! :(
sad to see u leave.
u are the best senior...
>Fangling: HI :]

ok finally finished!!!
now lastly, posting.
now chatting on msn with FELICIA LIM PEI YI!!! =D
so funny and so happy to chat with her.
hahahahaha
last time she used to pinch my cheeks whenever she saw me!!!
omg and it's so PAIN. -.-
last yr de HMT she sat beside me in class
then got A FEW TIMES she
HAH CHEW~ on my hands! -.-
then so disgusting!
somemore it's during the mrs ong or mdm ong
i tink is mdm,
she's still teaching then suddenly
HAH CHEW. -.-
but she's a gd ans sheet lols
jkjk
then we always discuss worksheet de ans
wa, really miss those times!
although she annoys me sometimes,
but makes me laugh non stop sometimes.
I REALLY MISS HER LA.
and just now she even told me she's going to
watch dang wo men tong zai yi qi
then she tot today is weekday!
and she realized it's tao hua xiao mei
i said she should watch sha xiao mei.
she's still so dumb dumb de...
btw her chinese name is pei yi, mine is pei lin
then sometimes will mixed up.
somemore amanda seah pei yu is sitting in front of me. -.-
then PEI YU, PEI YI AND PEI LIN.
hahas.
haiz how i wish i can pause the time.
omg feel like crying now.
dun want talk le.
it makes me so moody. -.-
ok le,bye bye.

2009-12-25T21:32:00.005+08:00

went for a jog this morning.
christmas is so boring to me...
i dun like christmas actually
dunno why.
juz dun like.
i feel tat it's meaningless la.
i ran 2.4km at my hse downstairs de park.
DAMN TIRED.
i wanted to increase my stamina
but in the end nearly faint.
think i got some time didn't
exercise le.
and somemore i sprint for the first 700m like tat
and i out of breath le
but i didn't stop at all.
i can't stop.
i hate to stop when running halfway.
then i used my nose to breathe.
i heard from one of my friend from track and field.
she say best is to use ur nose to breathe while running.
it helps bah.
I've always use this way.
then after the 2.4km i jog on the spot
but my stomach very pain.
think too long didn't jog le
then i jog for a while before sitting on the ground.
when i sat on the ground
the other ppl jogging stared at me
so ps.
but after sitting on the floor
i felt much better.
not so pain liao.
all the way to the end is 2000m(2km)
so i haf to run all the way to the end
then run another 400m back again.
REALLY TIRING.
i nearly faint.
i didn't even bring a water bottle
i juz brought my hp for the timer only.
i target myself to finish the 2.4km run in 17min
then after i run finish i still got abt 5min left! (:
tis is my first time during this holiday running.
really pain until i can't walk.
then only i myself go for a jog.
no one accompanies me.
my bro, dad and mum all still sleeping!
my mum weekdays and sat working so she always complain
she so tired then nag at me say i everyday play com,
dun help out the hse chores. -.-
or tell me dun watch so much tv...
then sun or public holidays she always slept until very late.
and my dad the earliest he wakes up is 8.30am.
and my bro, forget it.
he dun even haf any interest in running.
he only want computer.
so i will haf to run alone.
anyway it's not a bad idea to run alone too.
at least u dun haf to wait for another person.
i dun like other ppl to be my burden
i also dun like being other ppl's burden.
so when i'm running
it's better to run alone for me.
although like LZL said,
quite sian,
but exercising talk so much for wat.
anyway just now having take away food form 406 again.
haiz mum and dad went out le
but it's better they dun drag my bro and i out
i want to watch tv and use com
going out with them is so boring
i can only follow them behind their back. -.-
and going out wif my third aunt and uncle they all
are so miserable
they are juz trouble maker for other ppl
they always want to trouble ppl.
i dunno how to explain
but...ok nvm.
and they are so outdated and i can't tolerate them.
they dun like me wearing shorts.
oh pls,
if go out to shopping malls
got a lot of ppl also wear shorts,
wat's the BIG deal?!
and when they saw my fringe
they'll ask me to go cut.
OH PLS,
my fringe is still so short!
i juz cut not long ago.
then going out with them is liek torturing myself lurh
hate it. -.-
hey i hate noobs i tell u...
noobs are so idiotic
and esp computer noobs.
wat are u taking me for?!
making use of me, i noe.
u are juz an IDIOT.
stop reading, busybody. -.-

2009-12-24T21:09:00.004+08:00

i bought the jolin cover de lao fu zi magazine. :) the hotel room. :]

this is at bugis. sorry tat the images are very small.

in penang.

2009-12-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

hey 22nd came back from penang.
wa damn tired de.
sat on the bus from 11am
till 11pm. although the bus got games,
movies, massage system bla bla
but i sat on it for 10+ hrs.
u want try?
I really feel like vomiting on the bus la.
then i kept eating sweets
and the air con hor
so cold sia
and i took my jacket as blanket
I won't go to Penang again lurh
and i visited the 小娘惹的 mansion wor
damn cool. :]
the wat baba or nonya de la
then their rooms are cool too. :)
tat place's cool~
took pics.but some time later then post
coz got a lot
then now i lazy.
tmr christmas...
HAPPY CHRISTMAS!
and i hate the hotel shampoo!
no bubbles, no aroma...
then still made my scalp so itchy
when i was in malaysia i really miss my own shampoo.
sch going reopen soon!!!
OMG.
hate it. -.-
I HATE SCH
I HATE TEACHERS
I HATE HOMEWORK
I HATE THE PPL THERE
I JUST HATE SCH! >.<
btw i want go watch the 刺陵!
by jay chou and lin chiling.
show on next thu.
haiz feel like watching it now!

2009-12-16T20:47:00.002+08:00

<3!!!!!!!!!!!

爱死小猪罗志祥&Jolin蔡依林了！=D

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